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YSK that this is another pic via my friend who owns/operates a store in the Pike Place Market .... TONS of YSK shit down there, man, seriously.

YSAK that I used to manage a convenience store (back in the day, when I lived in Tulsa) and yes, signs like this are necessary. :blink:

YSK I don't know how I'm supposed to act or feel right now. I'm a mixed up bundle of emotions, and I'm going to make a few missteps along this way.

YSK I've never been good at grieving. I am much better at fixing things and doing things. So that's what I focus on, what I can do to try to make things better for others who are hurting right now, and I hope maybe by easing some of their pain, it will diminish my own.

When my father died, everyone was a wreck, so I made all the phone calls, all the arrangements. It was a month before I cried. I just kept staying so busy that I couldn't. Every time someone close to me dies, I have this urge. Because I don't know what else to do but to DO something.

YSK, you fellow YSK'ers who have my number, that I appreciate your phone calls. I'm sorry I'm not much for conversation, and I'm sorry I can't just open up and spill out my emotions. I know it would probably make me feel better, but I don't know how to talk about these things. That doesn't mean I don't appreciate you trying, and I am grateful that you are there. I'm writing because it's easier for me than talking, so here's an update on my progress:

YSK that in the 7 stages of grief, I hit stage 2 (guilt & pain) first, then stage 1 (denial & shock). It would be like me to do things out of order! Now it seems I am on to stage 3 (anger & bargaining), because I'm really pissed off today! I feel this pent-up rage, and I keep trying to point it at different people. I hope this stage passes quickly. The book (ok, website) says I can do permanent damage to my relationships in this stage and that I should watch myself.

I wish I were a boxer or a fighter or that I could swing a hammer at something, but all I know how to do is sing. Where is the angry grief song that I can sing? Where is the why-am-I-so-fucking-sad song?

YSK this is ridiculously rambly. Thanks for listening, friends.

ysk--there is no order to grief...it doesn't have a manual

ysk your cared about and your allowed to grieve in your manner..it isn't up to anyone to determine this for you.

YSK I should probably be rooting for Oklahoma. This is literally the only place I can post this without getting something thrown at me, but I kinda hope the Heat win the championship. It may be a long shot. I don't know, because I'm not actually a sports fan. But yay, they won!

YSK I'm pretending I didn't just read this*gives Diva the stink eye*. I think I might start coughing up blood. Let the Thunder roll!!!!!!!!!!! Throws something at Diva.

(((((Diva))))) Hon it took me a long time and some counseling to learn and understand that there is no wrong way to grieve as long as you allow yourself to grieve...am here if you need an ear or shoulder...sending you strength and peaceful energy...

LMAO YSK, Crystal, you always make me laugh!

It's a dangerous cycle because everyday I go to work (usually 6 days a week, the bastards!), and everyday I have to put on makeup to cover the pimple, so everyday I get a new one from the makeup (my cousin says stress, but I'm pretty sure it's makeup clogging my pores, not stress). So, now I look like a 13 year old! But at least I have a day to rest with no makeup.

have you tried bare minerals? it actually does help prevent acne

YSK, well, I must confess I don't wear makeup that often. Most days, it's just lipstick for me. I have tried the cheap bare minerals knockoffs, but I can't cough up the crazy amount of money they want for that stuff!

And YSK, I don't generally have acne. I usually get one pimple per month, and I'm sure you can guess when that comes! This has been a very strange week for my face.

YSK: That I'm a humble person.

i get my foundation once a year cause i don't wear make up daily either..i get mine at ulta and i get the large one lasts a year so its worth it.

YSK this is the saddest text I've ever received.

I asked his best friend, "How are you holding up?"

This was the response:

Lost and don't know what to do. something happens and I go to call syl and think she's not here, I have no one now that understand me and listens to me I don't know what I am going to do



My heart just breaks for her. What do you tell someone who has lost the only person who really knew them?

perhaps step up and offer the friendship that you have to offer and let her know she not alone ...:( this breaks my heart too

YSK I would tell her , it won't always be like this. It will get better. And instead of picking up the phone, just talk to Syl out loud. That might help.

I Should Know that adding alcohol to a bad situation rarely makes it any better! My head hurts! But it was fun last night... ♪♫♪♫

YSK that I'm grateful for my friends. I have some really amazing people in my life, and I intend to only add more amazing people.

I ran into a few people last night that I've left behind me in recent years, and I realized I'm not missing anything. They're not bad people, but they're not awesome people, and I'm not making any room for anybody less than fabulous.

YSK I realized I might be a bit self-destructive. And that I'm working on it.

YSK an Epsom salt bath feels pretty awesome after a massage.

YSAK that McD's has any size pops (large Diet Coke extra ice, please) for only a dollar ALL summer (in Ontario, anyway)!

YSK bath salts !! :chasingzombie:

Yes McDs has had thaT promotion for quite some time in some, if not all of the U.S. .. and YSAK that here in FL they are trying to do away with any sugery drink in restaurants, etc that are more than 16 oz.. :eyebrow:

YSK how incredible Ms. Gaea is. The more I get to know her, the more I see the Light inside her.

YSK, Gaea, that you are going to come out of this stronger. You are already so strong! You are loved!

YSK, that somewhere in between statements that make you want to do a total FACEPALM http://a3.twimg.com/profile_images/1...alm_normal.jpg, JAGG has little nuggets of staggering wisdom.

YSK: That sometimes I want a break from being nice.

LOL "JAGG-induced Facepalms"! I surely would not be the only woman to post there!

On an unrelated note,
YSK that I love BFP, because a total stranger taught me something about myself today. It also happened on Saturday.

That doesn't happen on FB. It happens here. This community is awesome. I realized I have some issues to work on, and this person just pinpointed the root of it in a heartbeat, without knowing a thing about me. Now, to figure out what to DO about it....

YSK I am at the beginning of a long journey, but I am going to come out stronger on the other side. Sometimes loss and sometimes heartbreak (and sometimes both) are a catalyst for making changes. I know my dad's death changed me for the better. I know leaving my wife changed me for the better.

YSK I think I will change my title, because I do not yet possess all the characteristics necessary for the Queen of Awesomeness, but 6 months or so from now, maybe I will. Maybe I will finally give myself the credit I deserve, and maybe I will learn how to be alone, how to put myself first, and how to make my own "structure". And also to have a little more willpower when it comes to the cookies LOL

YSK I'm probably going to regret posting so much on this website, but it really helps me process things.

YSK:

My daughter set me up on a blind date for this Saturday:eek:.

Dinner can't hurt.

I think it is too soon to date. I am just calling it dinner and have a back up plan if I need it. lol

I slept all night the past few nights.

It is so calm here in the new place. Oh yes, I have moved.

YSK I hope your date goes well, Breezy!

Thank you mizz diva! I am sure dinner will be good. lol.

YSK that I registered to audition for a talent-based reality show. Feeling a little nuts, but people have been asking me to do this for years, and I promised my bestie I would do it a few months ago.

The hard part? "Describe yourself in 150 characters or less."

This is what I came up with:

Once homeless, now living the American Dream. A geek w/ a shoe addiction. Hopeless idealist, volunteer, social justice crusader. Oh, & I like to sing.


Thoughts??

How do you describe yourself in what basically amounts to a Tweet?

YSK:

I called and cancelled the blind date. It is too soon. She deserves a person already for whatever might come. I am not there.

YSK that when you drive 65 mph in the "fast" lane on a california highway you are going to get dirty looks. Move along, people! *vroooom*

YSK that my best friend is awesome. She's the only one who gets it!

YSK sloths are contagious

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(((( Breezy ))) soo proud of u knowing ur limits right now , when your ready watch out world !! ~~