I went to another memorial today 3rd in a month, there's another next wknd and one more in Austin for Mike.
All this loss makes me reflect on my own personal losses trying to grasp my head around all the femmes who tell me "you're amazing, wonderful, I have never felt so loved and safe and was able to be completely myself with you, you're my best friend and I love you" and then leave....
I seem to have a long history of being left. I even had someone break up with me by saying "your too nice- I don't know how to handle it"... I mean Really!!
so many of these relationships weren't working and I stayed. The question is why?
Thats what's on my mind maybe due to seeing the BIG Ex I LEFT today.
and so many old faces.

Maine.........here I come!
 

Celebrating the purchase of a new practice in Maine! Going to be able to do the bi-coastal commute. Life is grand!

I need to post Abby's loft bed and the practically new truck tires on Craigslist.. Hoping to come out at $400-ish.

Wondering if I can sell anything else :blink:

Our future.
Things that need to be done.
Later....

Everything...
 

Everything San Francisco-ian....

while I'm still listening to...

Food. This burger is GOOD....
Taking a walk with my wife later.
Homework that I'm doing.
The look on her face.

Her scent... lingering after she has left
Homework....grrrrr
Finals in 2 weeks!

Difficult decisions made. painful decisions about self-care
trying to do the right thing for myself and others
"the right thing is sometimes the hardest thing"
stepping away from distractions even really nice ones to tend to the things I keep trying to be ok with - myself and my heart
losing friends weekly to death
the losses have become too much
doing some inside work to ensure my future

Just trying to understand why some people just don't want to end things peacefully.

Plans for the summer and getting things going in the right direction again...

I have a lot on my mind right now, aside from these delicious brownies and laundry.

Friends/the people I love, packing, business details/travel plans, daydreams, my bosses reaction tomorrow, how different my hair feels, my senses, meditation, herbal tea and how lucky I am to have had so many wonderful experiences on my path so far.

I am looking forward to many more.

Tomorrow I will receive my exam results....
Praying those scores rock....

I hope so, I have a feeling I know what my path is supposed to be.

I just want things to go back to normal.

Who in hell set off bombs at the Boston Marathon, and apparently planted many others around the city? My immediate thought was "My God, it really is the North Koreans", but I don't think so now. What kind of world do we live in, anyway?

And now I realize that my privilege is showing. Three domestic bombing events-9/11, Oklahoma City, and this (whoever did it). For some, this is or was, normal.

How quickly things can change