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Cowardice.
There seems to be a lot of it around me lately. I sit here and I think about how many connections are lost because someone just cannot open their mouth. Is it that hard to be honest? What is gained by holding back? You will break more hearts by not being real than you would if you would just fucking say whatever it is that is making you feel. I am talking about any emotion. If you're happy. Say it. If you're angry. Say it. If you need something ask for it. If you allow fear to swallow you, the only person you are hurting is YOU. Build walls, carry resentments, break your fucking back carrying all that shit for christ's sake. Geeze. |
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why does my cat insist on dirtying the cat box i just cleaned out? why my son has to be such a he-man that he hurts himself... constantly? does my daughter really see how beautiful she really is? does He know what He means to me? |
lots of things... life in general... ready for a nap... reay for the beauty that is my life..
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Anyone under the misconception that's is easy to play guitar, you are wrong, wrong wrong. My fingers are sore and tired. I am plucking out Iron Man like a true beginner...Just sayin'
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My just fixed car is making an odd thumping noise when I go over a bump....like there's a body in the trunk or something... :|
I could swear I didn't leave a body in there.... hmmm I wonder if I should take a peekypoo... If I can't go to the beach because of this, I will be one very unhappy girl....sigh |
That I dont want to go to my hospice appt. tomorrow afternoon. It hurts me so much to go there. Because it takes me two buses each way. I just hope I can get some help with my pain pills issues and maybe the doctor can help with my pain. I doubt she will be able to tho. Cause after a year of me seeing her she has done jack shit about it. So, I will go and sit and then be told that she cannot help me. And that will take 10 mins and then it will take me an hour to get home. And when I get home I will be so sore and tired that it will take me days to feel better. Lovely isnt!?
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its not the easiest thing... i'm picking it back up again after almost 7 years of not playing... i feel Your pain
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My favorite market is having an event this Saturday that I am going to have to try to fit into an already tight schedule. They are having a "Meet Your Ranchers" day this Saturday. This is yet another reason why I shop there, because I can actually go and meet the PNW people who are providing me with sustenance, and ask them all of the questions that I am dying to have answered about their practices. YAY! I absolutely love that I can purchase a good portion of my food and sundries from locals. It just fits everything I believe in.
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my missing night is whats on my mind.. and what I am going to do about it
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I'm wondering if when my beautiful Spanish wife goes to sleep, I could take a few sharpies and ink something really exciting and beautiful on her before she wakes...
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That my phone is seconds from dying yet I am 30 min from home
Wondering if I will be knocked on my ass in that 30 min by a Riley happy to see her Daddy |
a certain whiny ass Peppa who hasn't figured out yet that her hours of fun with her Daddy while I sleep are over... It's back to regular old bedtime with me. Now to get her to sleep through the night. Ughhhh
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my feet do not like wearing socks and shoes..i don't know if this makes since but it feels like the socks rub my feet raw...see what happens when you exercise! :blink:
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Having that certain someone return to work from vacation time since last Friday and knowing it's pointless for said someone to even be there as said someone doesn't pull her weight throughout the workday.
And I'm not the only one who feels like this.... :sigh: |
what is on my mind..
Wondering what I want to do with.myself this weekend.. needing some "men" time.... Wondering if Peppa will ever get back in the habit of sleeping through the night... Wondering if I really need a roomate or if I want to be by myself for a while.. Last jghts panic attack and tears were not fun. But they were cathartic. Peppa licking my face forcing me to stop crying and laugh was priceless. I love that.dog. |
Chilling out and getting over the last teeny bit of last weeks total exhaustion. :fart:
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Finding work now that I am state certified it ought to be easier.
a long time friend and a new perspective a new friend lunch mtg yoga |
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