Just when you begin to not remember and let it fade...
 

The lightning crashes and literally a blast from the past comes walking back around...odd how someone we have not thought about or discussed in years upon seeing them it rushes back and you somehow find yourself clicking again right at the same spot as if no time and no apologies were needed.

Always on my mind lately....
 

I have been fortunate enough to bond with someone special....she may think that I am crazy but what is going through my head? The song Don't Wanna Miss a Thing by Aerosmith. I hope she knows how much she means to me. :flowers:

My Father Is On My Mind
 

My mother has been on my mind a lot lately.

I talk to her every week and we text, and

I try very hard to see her every couple of months.

I know her health is deteriorating, and

She seems a little flakier to me.

I am concerned about the quality of her life in the next few years.

:stillheart:

I was lucky enough to have three godparents growing up... my mother's best friend Emily, and her parents, Eunice and Kurt. I called the women Auntie, but Kurt I called Papa, because everybody did.

Papa passed away when I was overseas and I couldn't come back. Auntie Eunice passed away in January and we're in Regina for her funeral. Auntie and Papa are on my mind today... Papa's loud, roaring voice; German sentence structure; cigar smoke; fat armchair; piles of newspapers; pump organ; packs of gum; being called "girlie"... Auntie's soft smile; red hair; large glasses; gentle eyes; mouth-melting cinnamon buns; long hugs; good advice.

The Beatles have been on my mind

A distant friend because she sent me some special lotion for splits in my fingers. I have had a deep split on my thumb now for about 2 weeks. I remembered I had the special lotion, used it and thought of her.

my dad, since his birthday is in a couple days and Halloween was when I lost him.

The bitch that ran me over....cause today I hurt!!!!

My Auntie Shawn is on my mind today....
 

When I was a kid, I thought drug addiction was a problem for people with mental or financial issues. When my aunt became an addict everybody thought it was a phase, until it became apparent that she was high all the time.

My grandparents threatened to stop her allowance and kick her out of the house. Nothing mattered but the drugs. She would do anything and ANYone to get high. Her actions eventually resulted in a very painful death. Thank you very much AIDS!!!!

She definitely educated us. I miss her terribly.(f)

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My grand-daughter
 

Who called me "unexpectedly apparently..or accidentally...lol> just singing some song about a choo choo train.....made me miss her for a moment....<sad smile>....

Been talking to a lot of friends lately, and everyone seems to be having some struggles. Just hoping karma comes around and evens it all out for them :tarot:

*She* is... Because I got a wonderful card in the mail from her today... And because I think my feelings for her are way deeper than I realized... And because I haven't felt this way for someone in a very very long time (years)... And because unless something bad happens (financially) I get to see her in less than 2 months... And because I'm worried that she may change her mind about me... And because I overthink things... LOL I'll stop rambling now...

My Renaissance Butch ~~ hys diversity in so many ways ~

I was accused of blaming AIDS for my Aunt's death. Apparently this sentence I wrote was missed the first time around.:|

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My youngest son as I see him beginning to fall in love.

Handsome is. How she is, whether she's enjoying her break away, if she's thinking about me and us and the future. Just when I was feeling all calm about it, all que sera sera, the tears come.

Who is on your Mind....Why?
 

My brother, his wife and their young family.

My sister-in-law's father died this weekend after a battle with cancer. My sister-in-law is Japanese but lives here in London and whilst she travels back regularly, unfortunately she cannot make it back home in time for the funeral.

my lady friend from vegas.. how does she know when to call me? she calls everytime im feeling low..this time i havent heard from her in like 9 months.. maybe its just the holidays and shes calling friends. huh. anyway it will be nice to meet her yak an have coffee..maybe drinks..see what each others been up to. lol seems we always have some kind of stories to smile about.

My good friend Woody. She was an amazing, awe inspiring person, and a role model for butches everywhere. She was so tremendously supportive of me and my own losses, even while she was battling her own illness. I so wish she were still here with us, but she told me at the end that she had done everything in her life that she really wanted to, and that she had no regrets. I hope I can say the same when my time comes.

Woody did so many interesting things during her lifetime. She was a biker and inveterate world traveller, a builder, a chimney sweep, she drove a limo and taught English in China. (I can't help but laugh thinking of all those Chinese people who must 'pahk the cah' the way they do in 'Baaston'.) She was an archeologist, and worked on international digs, she smuggled gold in Thailand, and she raised huge amounts of money and awareness for women's issues with just as much energy and commitment as she directed towards the art installations she built.

Woody and her rainbow mohawk were iconic riding down 5th Ave in the NYC Pride Parade. Everyone looked for her, and everyone needed to get their picture taken with her. A photo of Woody at NYC Pride even illustrates the Wikipedia definition of 'dyke'. Woody passed on the morning of her home Pride Parade in Boston in 2009. Two weeks later NYC Pride was led by a huge double sided poster of Woody with her birth and death dates, festooned with rainbow feather boas. Some spectators burst into tears when they saw it.

Sometimes Woody is on my mind, and today is one of those days.

Thinking about all my friends from DC to MA and the effects of the hurricane. Being a native Floridian I know the impact these big storms and can have. You are all in my thoughts and prayers. Just remember Im just a little south of you and able to help you if you need it.

My Grandma Wilma. She died from colon cancer June 30th of this year. It's my first Christmas without my grandma :( I love and miss her terribly.

My mom...she made the holidays so beautiful.

I am thinking of my daughter, who has Borderline Personality Disorder. We have not talked since I have her wedding this summer. She is not helping herself and is blaming me for all her woes. In order to stop her from abusing me over and over again, I had to block her out of my life. Tough Love. I know its hurting me more than its hurting her but its also the only thing I could do to protect myself.
Nonetheless, I miss her especially during this holiday. We had sooo many traditions based around this holiday. I love her. She is my only living child. And I am SO proud of her for all the wonderful achievments she has made in her life. She is totally functional except where she is dysfunctional and that is in personal relationships.
I so want to see her. I dare not initiate to do so. I have learned she must come to me, when she is softer and not so turbulent.
So I do not have my daughter this holiday...and this brings such sorrow.Yet I have my chrissy and my sister and all of her grown children...so i am blessed...

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The Mad Hatter.......I don't know why....because there is something about a guy in a hat

Who is on my mind and why?
 

My mom is on my mind. She knows why, I am sure of it.

An ex :|

She texted me today...

Funny thing is...just a couple days ago I thought about her for the first time in a long time and wondered how she was doing....irony

:blink:

Sarah and a day of conversation.:moonstars:

Me and the things I need to do for myself.

Who is on my mind
 

My Dad and how much I miss him.

My friend and former co-worker from HomoDepot. We reconnected and had a nice catch up talk... I told her about all of y'all here and how nice it was to have this place. I'm hoping she will join here. :)