My cousin.

She's been gone 3 years but I had a dream about her Sunday night. In the dream I ran into her and although I thought she had died she hadn't but had been in hiding for 3 years. I asked why but didn't get an answer. She seemed to be in a hurry. I woke up feeling yucky and it's been on my mind since.

My dad. He is being non compliant with his medical team.

I know that feeling. My dad won't even see a medical anything.

As for what's on my mind...I hope I have all the tools I need in order to build my dresser.

Glad I'm not alone. It's starting to take a toll on my mom, she is beyond mad.

On my mind....
 

Approximately a hour ago, I awoke to a telephone call inviting me to an interview this Friday morning.

After today's long drive through crazy Charlotte...a draining, emotional, stressful meeting with a new specialist...then long drive back through crazy Charlotte ....I'm ready for a few days of movie marathons and activities to help me "zone out"...

can I just say ...
 

Cold weather, autumn breezes and I've got the blues. This time of year hits me harder than most. Holidays are coming up and I can't decide what would be worse, seeing my family and enduring the drama, or not seeing my family and feeling estranged. Ugh.

Work is on my mind.

Change is coming. The teacher I have been working under for the better part of the last five years is retiring... in the middle of the year. Its going to be a difficult transition, both for the team (there are 5 paras in our program, including myself) and for the autistic students we work with. Its a brand new program. We just started it this year and so many of our staff members are new to us.

I am pretty worried about who her replacement will be. Her last day is in a week and a half, and they havent hired anyone new yet! How scary is that!!

I am the only para in our program who knows everything for every student and every para schedule. So, when push comes to shove... if someone new comes in late... I have to teach them the ropes.... no pressure or anything.

Not being able to travel to go to my godfather's funeral. It is weighing very heavily on my mind and heart, I am thinking that I shouldn't let it bother me so much, but it does.

Big day tomorrow, need to get a lot done

Too much to really type, my brain is overactive at this moment!

A few things.

When I got up this morning, while entering the bathroom, I saw myself in the mirror, which got me to thinking. What the hell am I doing when I am sleeping to get my hair/bedhead to stick up in odd places? Hmmmm

good question, SB

On my mind is up coming holiday, 4 days of rest (OK, Thursday cooking might not be rest to some, but it is for me)

End of semester is like 4 weeks away, yay.

the now, double thanksgiving meal preparing for 2 different sets of the family.