My mother's mortality...

With one of her sisters just passed, and the other give. A year (maybe) to live...I can't help but wonder why am so fortunate to have the (thus far) healthy sister for my mom? I feel for my cousins. I can't even think about losing my mother so young (early/mid 60s is young in my book)

I've also been wondering if my mom is thinking these things. She is like a still brook. It all bubbles to the surface in its own good time...and I won't rush her with that line of thinking. I do wish she would get a thorough work up done though.

That this Thursday at 5pm can not get here fast enough.
That I am blessed with a wonderful family.
That I have people in my life that truly love me. They not only say the words, but their actions follow.
That I need to focus on that instead of letting a bad day unbalance me.

Being called in for an unexpected doctor visit tomorrow. They better not take long...I plan on being back to the lake before noon.

Today was my son's birthday. I tried to get him what he wanted and make it special for him. It was a struggle. Last night at 10 pm, my sister's baby was delivered by c section. She already knew several hours prior, that the baby was gone. My heart feels like it's been crushed.

The fates are working in my life, pushing me in new directions. I am listening, I am trying to follow my path and understand the choices that are placed before me.

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Some sleep but I am not that tired, yet!

quite a bit...most of it is even good..

Will ICD-10 be delayed yet again? What will this mean for my people and department. How can congress allow the opinions of a relatively small number of physicians, who are campaign contributors, hold hostage the rest of the country from moving forward.
We have already spent billions, can we please just do it and get it over with. I am tired of waiting, the rest of the world has moved to ICD-10, why do we have to be so backwards in the US. So frustrating

not so much yet....but let me finish my coffee ... lol

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A much loved friend...

She suffered an enormous loss today. My heart goes out to her...but I would really like to hug her right now...sigh

Just a few things!

Wow! I need an ice bath from my neck all the way to my toes!

I was thinking the very same thing, but then afterwards, huge heat pads for deep heat like they use in physical therapy. I hurt so bad right now, it's over for me today doing stuff around my cousin's property. Time for me to take the rest of the day off. Start fresh tomorrow maybe doing some mowing or trimming work around the property.


I think that 6 foot round, 2 ft wide, 2 ft deep trench I dug around the huge stump I have to burn has whipped my ass good today.

I am glad I had some energy today to get some laundry cleaned at the washeteria and that I had enough energy to make a lovely summer pasta salad.

I guess I should go bake out in the sun, for a bit.
Get get my dose of vitamin D.

Then eat.

Then get some beauty rest.

Tomorrow is Sunday, after all. : )

Thinking over coffee this morning.
 

That staying in the present is best. To not look behind and to not look forward. In having an epiphany the other day - I realize it is best to not look forward to certain things - to have expectations - because that way one is not disappointed. It is ok to have this presence of mind. But, sometimes it is hard to put it into practice. I need to start. Now.