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Ham & Swiss on Rye
I had lunch with my phone in your bathroom because I could not help myself!
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My mother called me bright and early... she wanted to know if I was going to the cemetery today... I was trying NOT to think about that, about all the people I have lost, to whatever reason...
Grandma Grandpa Pappy Cousin Becky Uncle Joe I miss my family that has gone... Mostly... I miss my little sister Amber. I will try and find a cemetery today and pick daisies for a child's grave, and spend a moment thinking about her. |
Thinking about my dad and missing him, but knowing he watches over me.
My mom, who raised me until I left home at 17. She did the best she could with what she knew herself. I was a wild child of the 70's. My stepmom, who passed in Feb, she was my rock for all my adult life. Thinking how the 3 of them are now arguing about their children and knowing my brother Peter is there playing moderator with them. Thinking of those holding fond memories of their loved ones today. |
First week of next month!................
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My workplace is on my mind.
I am continuously stunned by the shenanigans that go on there. We are so mismanaged at the very top that it is - quite frankly - scary. I come back to work today to find out yet again that management has made another gross error in judgment and is being called to task by the shareholders. (as they should be). Here is the bottom line - while they line their pockets with solid gold - and live a high life - and continue to make idiotic decisions that will in the end cause our company to circle the drain - (mind you the company has been in business since the 1800's - and has a big presence in the community here) - they do NOT give a damn about the livelihoods of all of those they employ. Those with families to provide for - those who have worked for the company for years and are close to retirement - just every person that gets up each and every damn day and reports to work and works their butts off - for what? So that management can look good - and yet not care how their decisions and actions impact those of us who work our butts off. So here is to the shareholders that will raise a red flag and call upon the Board of Directors to ask for resignations of these managers (and hopefully they do it soon).... and hopefully soon enough to save all the jobs that will be lost now and in the future if those managers continue to hold seats of power. |
Date night on Thursday and then maybe 20th year high school reunion in June.
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June is a very busy month. Its the end of the school year, my sons birthday, pride, and the start of summer! soooooo much to do... time to take a deep breath and just jump in feet first.
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Trying to decide whether I'm feeling busy or feeling overwhelmed (at work). Dreading trying to fit a social like in, but knowing it is overdue. I'm tired just thinking about it.
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I am thinking about how often the unexpected can make you smile. Often times it happens when you need it the most. Some give you a smile without even realizing they are doing so. I think that is the best feeling. To smile from the unexpected.
A surprise smile and the feeling that comes along with it. |
11 more days till my 20th reunion!!!!
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I have a lot of things on my mind...
... we will just stick with... my very long homeowners to-do list! |
My mom is on my mind tonight. How a simple argument over Facebook while in the same house turned my entire world upside down. Yes sometimes I say things out of anger and I unintentionally hurt someone I love but when you hide behind a monitor something is wrong. I finally have my freedom; my own apartment with a friend should be a happy time but in this case not so much. I'm lucky to have an amazing fiancée and wonderful friends & family to help me through but when you lose the love of a parent because they are no longer able to control you is a very powerful loss. My heart is full yet empty, happy yet crying tears of unimaginable pain. I hope that one day I will be able to be in my mom's presence once again and be able to be with my sweet sister ~ until then I will move on and if it is meant to be it will be, if not then there is a reason of which I may not know of right now but one day I will understand
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My 86 year old mother had her first fall this morning. She is ok, just a minor sprained ankle and a lot of black and blues due to warfarin therapy. Decisions need to be made. She is fighting every step of the way for independence and to remain in her own home. This is exhausting on the mind, soul, body, and spirit. |
I've packed up my car. I'm heading home in the morning. I've made files. Made calls. Had cell phone lessons. I'm going to hate leaving my parents house just saying goodbye to my Mom.
I'm good for the most part, but it doesn't take much for the tears to come. |
Being so close yet so far away from her!
I am hoping this one will last a long time because I am getting way too damn old for games that people play when dating. Being glad 5 more days till I get to spend quite a bit of time with her and the kiddos. |
Our neighbor Lady passed on tonight. She was a pistol and we will miss her greatly. Cancer sucks!
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I feel like I am not doing enough to help my son...
Meds don't work... the programs aren't working... I need a new prospective... I want to make the world accessible to him... there has to be more I can do. |
I feel like I have tripped and stumbled so many times. I gain balance, only to lose purchase again. I feel tired. Yet, the other side of me remains steadfast - and with conviction. Sometimes I feel so scared I can hardly breathe, and others like I can tame the Moon.
I can not always be strong. I am still a human after all. Perhaps this is truly what life is about. I know the feeling will pass. Today has just put me in this thought process. |
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