Getting all the stuff packed into boxes and moved into the bathroom so we can have new carpet put in.

I am wondering if the fact that my now ex partner and I were not able to make things work may be due, in part, to the fact that she does not perform gender in a masculine or butch way. She did have some qualities related to more butch type activities but she does not identify as butch. I very strongly identify as femme and find that the energy and balance of a butch femme relationship works so well for me. I enjoy even the small things like someone opening the door, helping me with heavy items, ordering both of our dinners at the restaurant, and the butch confidence and dominance within certain aspects of the relationship. I know everyone is different so this is just my thoughts about the matter. Thank you for reading my post.

I've been working on decluttering too. It feels like there needs to be some sort of 12 Step program around this because I'm finding it incredibly difficult to do. Well it's all done now... It's just I keep wanting to go back to certain boxes and retrieve stuff, I'm really having to white knuckle it to refrain from doing so. I watched this show once where some sort of psychic healer person was helping a woman declutter and they had to go over each piece and do this whole letting go ritual of saying goodbye to everything item by item. Oh and they had to thank the stuff they released/gave back to the universe too. One... item... at... a... time. Well I'm not Methuselah. I figure I've got maybe 30 good years left on this planet – I don't want to waste 10 of it on this crud. Nope I have to get rid of this stuff. Even then I'll still have all that stuff of mine in my son's storage unit to go through.

All this preparation for carpet is ridiculous. I can see spending the money on other certain things on the house. I just wish they would move out, this house is gonna end up bleeding them dry.

What about “When”? Ducking!!

I was thinking about how more often than not the price we pay for things does not necessarily match the quality. However, I was also thinking it depends on the item being purchased. Like I pay a lot for my shoes and sneakers and they last me a long time. Then today I bought a new pair of earbuds w/ mic for $30 after sending back the $150 Beats pair that I had. I synced the new set in less than 5 minutes and the buds fit perfectly in my ears. Again paid less- and got better quality than paying more.

However, I shall also say it really does depend on what you are buying. I would not use a blanket statement and say ALL things high priced do not match in quality, etc.

It would be cool to have a thread where people could give examples like I did. It would be interesting to see what others think and what things they have purchased that fall in line on either side of the fence.

Thats a great idea for a thread Reach and hacks and dupes as you suggest would be useful too.

Prepping for my class on Saturday to see if i get the job or just to further my training and discuss pay rate, etc seeming it sounds like i got the job.

My ex works at the same agency as I do which is fine because we are both very professional and don't work in the same division but sometimes I have to interact with her which can be somewhat dysregulating.

The electrician was here yesterday and for 100 bucks he relieved my mind that I do not have an electrical issue at my smoke detector. We came up with a solution to the battery issue by using a smoke detector that will be hard wired to the house with no backup battery (on order).

More than that I made friends with two local men. The electrician's helper seemed like an "old hippie" and I get along very well with old hippies.

Well worth 100 bucks.

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Actually, I'm trying not to think...I have a huge decision to make about work and a new, more specific job to my licensing and I gave it up to my higher power to help with it...

but it keeps creeping in...

(Sigh)

:blink:

Almost everything people do in life today seems to have a mobile app.... Why can't I find an app that gives me more time in a day whilst still getting all the things done that I need? Someone needs to make one of those!

My background check isnt done yet but i know there isnt anything on it. I heard there was a glitch in the new computer system at work.

On my mind
 

I found out today that the next family party will be in Brazil. I was hoping for a 4th of July party but that will not happen. I will be saving up for Brazil and I hope that mom can come too.

How I find that I am in a place in my life where it is the little things that move me. Where I feel and see far better than I ever have. There is need for grand gestures or extravagant things. A smile, a flirt, or a bashful look- it is amazing what happens when your heart and mind are open.

A battery bank busbar. Dammit.

I meant to say there is NO need for grand gestures or extravagant things. THIS is what happens when I am wiped out from the day and try to write. :blink:

why am i still single again? jk ^^ hope the next days will be ok ^^