Shortly after I wrote this I did find "the one". The one I laugh with ( sometimes at) cry with, act like a silly, goofy girl, talk with about everything under the sun and listen to her own hopes, fears, dreams and joyful moments and dry her eyes when her butch eyes leak and the most special and life-affirming of all: we make love, every glorious chance that we get.

Sometimes I have to pinch my self that I am so lucky. What did I want?

What I have found: a brainy, sharp, attractive, funny, loving butch who loves me, thinks I am really funny and laughs at all of my jokes (even the groaners)!

I want these cramps to go away, to watch a movie with company, a coffee milkshake and more lunch.

well I finally think I'm ready to be able to have a relationship. I'm actually pretty open to many things but there are things I *need* not want:

they can't be hung up on "being a gentleman" or we'll never get anywhere. I do need someone who isn't sexually shy. who can talk filth. who is t going to hold back because they think they need to act to some bizarre code. we'll be waiting forever if they wait more me to get dirty first. I can talk filth to peel paint off a wall but I am reactive and I bounce off of another's desire for me. being lusted after gets me going. I will respond very well but they have to start the engine.

I need a sense of humour that can take teasing/taking the piss. this is how I flirt. banter. I need someone able to tease and take the piss back so we can flirt with humour/sex. then get dirty. talking to me about flowers and chocolates and kittens and the colour of my eyes is not going to turn me on. think burlesque humour. naughty. nasty. slightly vulgar.

I'm still old fashioned in many ways but not in "protecting my honour" stuff. my honour doesn't need saving/protecting, it needs ravaging

I need someone who is a bedroom dominant rather than a top. I go weak kneed for someone who wants to use me for their own pleasure, not someone whos main concern is my pleasure. if their pleasure is to force me to orgasm 15 times then do it, don't ask me in bed what I want. I'm not a bottom, I'm a submissive. I there to be thiers. to do/take whatever they want. if the onus is in me to decide or say... doesn't work well for me.

I need someone who loves to talk. or converse. ever since coming home I dated a string of lone wolf/string silent types and it just doesn't work. if you can't laze about with me and talk about yourself and your life or how you see things or what you want to be doing... I'll get bored and lonely. I want to go to the natural history museum and sit on the floor by the butterfly case and talk about what the things you see makes you think of or remember. we'll have a great shag in the morning, have coffee and brekkie, then head out for a day of exploring and conversation.

and a submarine. I'd like someone to have a submarine.

I want a pony...it's long over due....

Oh...and time to magically elapse me past this uber boring unit in school...blah

AND

For ice cream to be health food...with advertisements saying... Eat More Ice Cream!

and world peace

That is all for now....

TOTALLY agree on the icecream part. Wish I had some right now! Coffee flavored! I also want to be one of those people who manage to sleep during the day since I worked over 12 hours last night...

...more time together...

what I want is , life , to be okay and not have to stress ,

I want peace inside of myself , and peace again with a few others , theres more wants that I wanna post but don't think I can do it yet

For a drunk to get honest, clean and sober. Then come back to me. She and I could have it all. It would take a very dedicated commitment and loads of hard work for things to level out to the good part but I have seen others do this and become very happy. The key is total honesty and total sobriety. She is gaming hard now, running on ego. I hope she will be okay.

I am not stupid. Chances of her getting honest, cleaning up and returning to me are a billion to one.

I love her.
Always will.
That is all.

I want someone who has the same definition of love that I do. Someone who is capable of commitment and a meaningful relationship. Someone who is responsible and intelligent. Someone who wont cheat and lie.

I'd like to have a better filter. :)

A cup of tea

For this virus cold thingy to be done

No more anxiety

All of my friends and family to be healthy, happy and successful in their lives.

I want someone who enjoys being doted on

wait change my last note, I shouldn't be so personel..... I want cookies.... ohhh and some milk to dip them

For it to be quicker and easier to get my girl (f) home for good, no more seeing each other every 2 - 3 months for 5-7 days.
I want her home so we can share our lives together as it is meant to be.
I want her happy.

Was thinking how much I want to dance with my girl (f) right now, hold her nice and close, my lips right my her ear, my hands moving slowly up and down her back........
most likely won't get to do this until Christmas *sigh*

Some rugelach & a nice big couch to cuddle on, instead of these stupid recliners.


~SAB

I just want to be loved without any fears!

Woke up about 2:30 a.m. ... Been eating brownie cookies and playing on the Internet for the past hour.

I need to go back to sleep now ... won't happen though. My butt will be dragging late afternoon. :(

*pulling another cookie out of the bag, accepting my fate*

I just want to be loved, wholeheartedly & unconditionally... The way I love

ripe strawberries & peace