Orema, good for you for standing your ground and being strong against this contractor. No written estimate? I call shenanigans! And if anyone tells me I have to make a deal right then and there, or lose out, it's an automatic deal breaker. I figure if they don't want me to check up on them or compare, there must be a reason.

On your mind
 

I have worn double mask since this pandemic started. I go out only for groceries and paid one visit to my brother and had the family here with all 3 of them wearing masks while here for an hour or more. Now that surrounding areas are opening up a little, our area has again been moved to Mar. 6 as the first time we can go and buy anything except groceries. This timing has been changed 3 times already and I am going to have to put my hair in a pony tail unless I can get a haircut. The lineups at the grocery stores are from one end of parking to the other in most of the plazas as people just want to get out and about. Most of the problem is illegal openings of after hours clubs and restaurants with hundreds of people attending. Many have been broken up and it does little good as if one person were positive for the virus in each case the chance of it spreading are certain. Put higher fines on those that break the rules I say. If you fly into our largest airport you can be fined if you don't go into isolation.WTH is that? Someone needs to slap Trudeau with a virus napkin.

STILL ON MY MIND

I was off by quite a few years. I joined here in 2009 and it was a couple years before that. That shortens the 20 years of a bit. Maybe it just seems like 20.

Update Your Software
 

I think after 14 years it's a good idea to update your email client to a newer updated version.

on your mind
 

It puzzles me that a woman can show some interest and exchange niceness for a while and then out of the blue, for reasons beyond your thinking that would cause her to not only ignore you but to be rude about it. I say, just say sorry, I was wrong, I am not interested any more "because". I would like to know why that's all.

The phone call I just had with my sister.. just laughing and crying in regards to our Mom. It felt good to share the pain with her...as weird as that might sound.. she felt the same way. Because we both understand what the other is going through.

I just received an earlier will that my Mom had done- she did a new one in 2019 that cancels this one out- but they still have to show myself and my siblings that it was filed.

I still cannot wrap my head around the fact that she is gone. I have the surreal feeling of being in a dream- even though rationally I know that is not true. That losing my Mom is truly real.

Mr. Reach: Being able to let someone else share in O/our pain makes losing someone dear bearable and i know from experience that if i could not have shared my grief with others the pain would crumple me into nothing. Some day You will be able to laugh more and cry less when You think of Your Mother. It's hard right now to believe that but it will happen.

What is on your mind.
 

Reach I can relate to you and hope you find your way through although as said, you never forget as the grieving just gets less. Since the beginning of 2000 I have lost my father, mother, sister, best friend all at different times. My brother who is much older than me is not well and we are the last two of our family. I have never stopped grieving as they cross your mind on every occasion or when someone else reminds you or when you are alone and deep in thought. I will never be the same person as I was but I have to go on or give in and that I won't do.
Hang in there Reach you are in my thoughts and I am sure many others here on BFP know the value of family and friends and their loss. Keep strong.

I signed the lease today on my new place- a 2bdr 1.5 bath townhouse!! All I kept thinking was that I wish my Mom was here to see it. We would have had the best time picking out stuff- she loved to help us get settled into our abodes.

Congratulations! It's bittersweet i'm sure.

Too much damage has been done

Cannabis Vape Pens

I brought 4 vape cartridges with me since I didn’t know if the mitten would accept my out-of-state ID. Some states require you to have state ID to make a purchase and it will probably take a few weeks to get my state ID.

I prefer flower, but didn’t want to chance bringing flower into the state. I had no problems with the vape cartridges.

Well, the vape cartridge (at $50.00 a cartridge) lasts more than two weeks for me. I can go through $50 worth of flower in a couple days :blink:

The vape cartridge is filled with oil and gives a more organic or “clean” experience and is not as “heavy” as smoking flower. The initial impact isn’t as strong, but it’s still very good and lasts a long time.

I can and will get used to the vape cartridges. It’s exactly what I need on a limited income.

On My mind is My upcoming move and how excited I feel about it. I cannot stop thinking about all the decorating scenarios and then making lists off from those scenarios. I believe Wayfair has been added to My social circle.

Did I mention that I am a virgo?
As if that explains everything.

This is the first time I have ever lived alone. Its strange. I find myself not doing things, simply because no one will make me. And I find myself doing things I didnt used to do, simply because I know no one will mess it up when I am done.

Living alone for the first time at 38 is a very big step.

(also, I think about how different it is to live in a very small space. Moving from a 4 bedroom house to a 23 ft motor home is a very big change)

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Things went better that I expected yesterday. The storage cost was lower than the estimate and the movers were flexible, professional, and friendly. So far so good with the unpacking, though I have a long way to go. I think I’m gonna be very happy here.

My arm is a little sore where I got part 1 of the vaccine, but Tylenol, melatonin, and some heavy blankets helped me sleep well last night. Rinse and repeat for tonight.

Hoping everyone is healthy and safe.

Making a tiny space as versatile as possible is hard. There is a lot of rearranging and rethinking and reorganizing. But, I am getting close!! Soon my space will be exactly what I need.

insomnia, depression, PTSD....

How easy it is to get lost, caught up in the negative, rather than focus on the things in life that are going right.