Good Mornin Folks;Ms morningstar; I hope you make it to the reunion ok and your wagon don't need fixin. My furbabies would worry themselves sick if Daddi did'nt come home for two weeks. Well that's all and take it easy Folks.

morning to u too Glenn and Loft dwellers and peekers
they would worry huh?? ......... ha ,.. k

my wagon is fine..... i just need to get a air filter..
hope i get to reunion ok too. :)

oh and the lil note on passanger thing..... a small dog is welcome'd on such road trips. :)

Happy Labor Day! Where in the world did summer go? Geesh......it's so true what momma said about time flying when you're, *choke* older.....:blush:

Hope everyone is relaxing......

Melancholy usually sets in for me this time of year, i have some real transitioning to do, most especially with my upcoming surgery this Friday. Hoping to not get mired down in self loathing, but seeing it as a time to redefine me, nothing major, but I have some "weeding out" to do, possibly a career change that will be dictated by my health and rehab of a new joint.
I question myself, my ability to be relationship material after being rather burned this last time, I know I'm still that invisible lesbian to most that I come in contact with....now I will appear "older" I'm afraid.....:|
ACK, I gotta get off THAT train....

Reunion bound folk, be safe, and have a fabulous time :)
Ok, back to Happy Labor day and last (unofficial) day of summertime fun!!

nice!
 

I've been around a while ;), from Almost Heaven.......:hangloose:

Thanks for the good wishes!

LipstickLola,
I can so relate to what you've written. I try every day to stay positive and know that I am lovable and desirable. Not always easy but when I don't believe it myself, I pretend that I do until I do. May sound crazy but it works for me when I need it to.
xo,
~Bleu

I do that to....
Cuz I just dont understand y am still single, and wonder what is
wrong with me.

Well, I suppose there are a few of us that need to work on that! Glad I'm not alone ;). Im having hip replacement at a fairly young age, it feels very scary to think that that will have a bearing on whether or not anyone will ever want me...how I'll be "seen", if that makes sense. Always been a go getter and have been seriously side lined for the past year+, so I definitely will have some work to do!
Right now my dryer is buzzing....downstairs, omg :|

Well sitting here...... waiting to get truck loaded..... thn its off to the Texas hot lands

Ilove this song ......
[nomedia="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kOtiyzk3MYI&feature=youtube_gdata_player"]Karmin - Brokenhearted (Official Music Video) - YouTube[/nomedia]

When things go wrong or not how I'd like them to do, my first instinct is to wonder what in the hell is wrong with me. I feel so messed up in so many ways; defective, almost. It makes me wonder why I even bother with wanting a relationship, but yet, I keep waiting for it.

Sue

.....DITTO ....
ON THAT....

I always hear how id make someone a great wife..... so many times... sooooo
here I sit .... broken hearted waiting for the right one to call me ......
Maybe someone will claim the song I posted above ..... if they know my number ... sigh....
And heres my number is another song. Ha

Been there, done that. Not a good feeling. I was told when you stop looking your love will find you. So, I stopped looking and love found me. That was almost 13 years ago. Love will find you as well.

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TopDog is a bar that my friends and I go to a lot!! This is only 5 minutes or so from my home. There were also several sightings in my town (I didn't see it of course). I live in NJ..... not Kansas! Where is Toto??

Hoooouston means im 1 step closer tooo ahhh everyone that lives there.... haha...
yep landing in Houston this evening....
and
went gown shoping with an ol fem pal .... tried on a sparkly one.. now I have glitter on me cant seem to get it all off ... and have to go pic up a load ..... what will the shipper think??? Lol...
And wow... I cant believe how much I miss Texas.... even with all ths heat.... even went and looked at a house for sale ..50,000 .... nice neighborhood , fireplace, yard ....
sigh.......
Ruthy how u feeling over there ??

Hello all, this is my first time posting in the loft.

It's 9:25 pm and I am contemplating going out into my LR and making another dress.

Contemplation, however, is not the same as doing it. lol.

This weekend will be busy. Saturday with Dad and then Sunday with my sister's daughter. It's her 20th birthday and the first birthday without her Mom. It's going to be rough.

Now I am contemplating what color of dress I am contemplating going out into my LR and making. Orchid, hunter green or burgandy? Hmmmm.

More than likely, I'll simply make it in the morning. I've done late night sewing projects before, and very few have turned out right the first time around. Being tired often makes for backwards sleeves and inside out bodices. They suck because you have to rip them out and do it all over again and I am the type that once I start a project like that, I have to finish it.

Still pondering about the color though...


Anyway, stay safe, sleep sweet when you get there, have a great day if you're on the other side of the world and just starting your day...take care, everybody.

Wow, and I thought I was busy....though it isn't sewing but other things keep me going back and forth and trying to decide which to do! Have a great evening....I'd go with the Hunter Green:) in the morning;)

All I want for xmas is my two front teeth ...
 

Hiya Lofters :)

I went to the dentist Tuesday just gone. I worry about my teeth and hate going to the dentist. But boy oh boy am I glad I have all my teeth (with a few root canals). My mum had all hers ripped out when she was in her late teens/early 20s (now why the hell would a dentist try to preserve the teeth of a working class woman who didn't think she deserved anything better?) and my dad had all his removed in his 20s?30? So, teeth freak me out a bit.

All I had to have done though, were two fillings and one crown needing covering at the gum. My gums are in pretty good condition - almost 0% gum disease, and teeth overall are ok. Later on, I'm going to get my gold crowns replaced with porcelain and since it's so reasonable, might have a couple of veneers put on. It's one of the great things about being in Asia, the kind of teeth care I get here is really expensive back home.

........i have a very big overbite and over the years its made my bottom teeth loose so have had to have them all out. Here they do what they call "all on 4" implants which means they do 4 implants and put a fixed bridge with more teeth on, which you cant take out, on the implants. Im at the stage where ive got a temporary bridge whilst the bones regenerate at the back, i have the 4 implants and will have to have another 2 at least, but waiting for bones and healing, it will all take around l2 months or more before a final bridge can be done. And at a cost of £7,500 which is cheap for England. Its the cost of a small car.........i considered going abroad to have it done but because its done in stages, not a good idea.
My mother also had all her teeth out as a present from her father for her 21st birthday!!! In those days (she would have been 100 next year) it was considered a good thing because when a woman married, if she had dental problems, it would save the husband having to pay for that. I have seen a photo of her before she had them removed and she had beautiful teeth - what a crime!

Hi all,

I thought I'd park here for a little while, I'm quite new to BFP, and have mostly been visiting the Word Games and placing the odd post to 'initiate' myself into the world of social media. I haven't ever been involved in an interaction such as this before, I don't even have a face book account! But, after a difficult past 12 months I've decided I need to challenge myself and move out of my comfort zone and shake off the bad stuff. I'm so pleased with the contacts I've had so far, everyone has been very friendly and I can float around and have a word here and there without fear of feeling uncomfortable and be valued for my comments. I'm looking forward to future discussions, here and in other forums, and to establish friendships with people with similar interests, and in other parts of the world. And if I am slow to respond, it's because I'm still working out how to reply, add a smiley face, or attach a picture!! Thanks for your time.

Thanks, I came across this site after a friend telling me to 'move on, get out there and find some new people to have interesting conversations with'. She directed me into the very foreign direction (for me) of social media and after looking at a couple of sites, we agreed this one had the most to offer a person who was redefining and rediscovering themself - it was safe, friendly and welcoming. I kind of fell into 'the loft' after floating in and out of other forums, and enjoyed the threads I was reading. And I fitted into the age group (I like structure and guidelines!!). It's a pity I'm so far away, from what I've read about the Reunion it sounds unreal. I'll look forward to encounters and stories relived through the various posts.

Hello Lofters!

I hope you all had an awesome weekend! My weekend went quite well! Had fun with my sister Susie, as we looked after Daddy for my brother and his wife. She and I take care of him one day a week so that they (brother and sis in law) can have a day for themselves. He is not difficult to look after, but he is a two person lift in case something happens, and it's also a time where she and I can do things together. This past saturday, we also spent time with my brother, sis in law, my brother's oldest daughter, her friend, mother and daughter, (my great niece, Squishy Nose) as well. We arrived there early and they left there late, lol. Anyway, Kelsi Jo, aka Squishy Nose, made my day, crawled on my lap, called me AUNT Missy Squishy Nose and giggled, just like her mother did when she was her age (3 yrs old). In fact, Kelsi Jo looks like a clone of her mommy, Brittany Jo. ANYWAY... she was a joy! Sue and I had a good time together, though she was in lots of pain. Poor thing (tongue in cheek cause we have a somewhat morbid sense of humor when it comes to each other) recently had a gastric bypass done (Jan of this year) and decided to go for an 16 mile bike ride with her husband. She rode the first 8 miles with her breaks on, without realizing it. She worked muscles that she didn't know she had and on Sat, she was in a good deal of pain. Anyway, again, we talked, spent some time with Daddy (he loves it) and just enjoyed each other's company.

On Sunday, Susie, myself, along with our sister Karen, went to visit our oldest sister's daughter, Laura, for her 20th birthday. This was her first birthday on her own and her first birthday without her Mom. She cried when she saw us, cried when we left, but in between, she laughed, and that was a birthday gift she gave to us. Karen presented her with an afghan our sister, Laura's mother, had made for Karen for Christmas one year and the way her eyes lit up was an absolute joy to behold! If she's anything like me, she'll wrap herself in it, knowing that each and every inch of that yarn that made that afghan, went through the hands and fingers of her mother. I know that still, now, after 18 years, when I wrap myself in the afghan Mother made for me the Christmas before she died... when I close my eyes and picture my mother, crocheting it, knowing that her touch was all over it, makes it feel like she's hugging me. It's a comfort and I pray that in the coming years, Laura will take comfort, wrapped in that afghan, knowing her mother's love and feeling it in her heart.

On the ride home from our visit with Laura, it was a time for Sue, Karen and I, to bond. It's difficult, Susie is a member at the church where we grew up. Karen is a member of an ultra conservative fringe church, not a cult, but not one I would attend lol. Anyway, there we were... two married straight conservative christian women, wearing pants and tee's, and me, the lesbian, dressed in plain clothes (Mennonite clothes) and we were bonding. We (they) were speaking of obeying their husbands. I could never submit to a man, but of course, I would never marry one LOL. However, I too, believe that I, as a conservative Christian woman, am called to submit to my spouse (if I ever am blessed with one) and it encouraged me to hear them speaking about it. Sue, in fact, said that she had to insist that the word "obey" be in her marriage ceremony, because she so strongly agreed with it. Karen didn't have to insist on it, but she feels just as strongly about it. It was refreshing to be with like minded women, refreshing to hear and share in the conversation that unashamedly centered around Christ, God, faith and what we believe our roles (OUR roles) as Christian women, are. I stayed silent for most of the conversation, although they know what I believe as well. They didn''t speak of blind obedience, and they don't worship their husbnads, by FAR! LOL. But they DO love them and believe they are doing as they are called to do.

It was a GOOD weekend!

It reinforced what I already knew about myself, my family and my faith. It gave me renewed hope and it renewed my resolve and faith that there is someone out there for me. Not to complete me, but to share life with me. God complete's me.

Today was frustrating. I was supposed to have a procedure done today and it had to be postponned until the 19th. I get anxious about these procedures, because they always use general anesthesia. They use that, because they are searching for potential bleeds (I am losing iron and my hemoglobin is falling) and I am put under, in case they find something they have to take immediate action over. Each time you are put under general anesthesia, your risk of complications and not waking up, increases. It already makes my blood pressure run very very low. Like 55 over 39 low. And while I am closely monitored, it's still unnerving to have your monitor alarm shooting off it's bells and whistles everytime your blood pressure is taken. WHICH BTW, is taken every 15 minutes, unless, of course, there's problems, like low blood pressure, then it's taken as often as every 5 minutes. Which sucks.

So, instead of being put under today, I had a perfectly free day, in which, I rested. Because I was so nervous about the procedure, that I didn't sleep last night. LOL

Tomorrow, I've got some shopping to do, some sewing to do, and some cleaning to do. Nothing major, but just a busy-ful (I made that word up, of course) day!

Hope all is well with each of you and this turned into a much MUCH longer post than I had originally intended!

BTW, it didn't get out of the 70's today, which means autumn is officially close! I love autumn. I love all four seasons, my favorite is winter, but each season I find special in it's own way.

Spring, planting, the flowers, new life, an awakening, a resurection... Easter.

Summer, sunshine, warmth, lazy days by cool mountain streams, swims in the lake, fishing in the river, lightening bugs (fire flies) whiporwills, crickets, frogs and children laughing and long strolls through warm summer rains.

Autumn, harvest, thanksgiving, crisp air, falling leaves, cool breaths, the scent of fall, the violent storms (love lightening and thunder and often will simply stand outside in the middle of a storm) the slumber of nature, the orange, gold and crimson colors that turn the world into a breath taking vision of vibrant, fiery glorious colors.

Winter... Christmas, the sky, the blueness of it, no other time of year does it happen... the green of the wintergreens, the snow.. the way it wraps the world in pristine white, innocent white, making anything it touches, into a thing of beauty. The way it silences the noise of every day... cocooning us and nature in it's insulating flakes. For me, there is nothing as romantic as a stroll through a heavy snow, especially in the woods. I love it.

OK... another added missive. I am in a "verbal" mood today and am getting itchy to finish my writing project, so I can start another. I've already ended the one and started the other in my head, I just have to get it down on "paper".

Take care and have an awesome rest of your day!!

i was literally climbing the roof on sunday...playin with shingles,gutter guards and gutters...and some other stuff. the ladder i had to use was some industrial sized thing from hell seemed long enough to work on the chrysler building...hard as hell to move around too.
Ah and my body was sore this mornin...old man.
Tennessee sounds better to me than TX.
Lot more people around the loft. Haven't had time to read many posts.
And ouch on the teeth!
I second the green for the dress. I don't know what color orchid is...i know it is a flower of many colors...

Take care everybody.

Evening fellow Lofters! I have a brand new hip! :hangloose:
Ready to dance very soon.....ll

Hope everyone is well
Lola