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the strangest thing ever-
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false intrusion.:training:
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Having insomnia even though I am dead tired. :|
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It all comes from being strangely tired tonight...
I'm wondering if it's too early to go to bed and if I go to bed this early, will I be awake at 2:00am? And if I'm awake at 2:00 am will I be forced to purchase non essential items from infomercials?
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How moving really sucks!! Packing boxes going through old boxes and throwing out old shit!
And in that mix I can't find last year taxes grrrrrrr! |
that i do not need anyone to define who i am or who i will be ..
and i wish i could reconnect with someone who has meant alot to me over the years... |
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Love is not just the romance..
It's the dirty stuff... It's the sweat and tears... It's digging in and doing the work.. Even when it's less painful and easier just to walk away.. Love is telling the truth even when you know it's going to rip someones heart out.. It's talking and talking and talking and talking... It's going over something till everything is clear.. Until you honestly know what is going on with that other person.. What triggered a response, why did that fight happen, why is that a boundry... Love is learning your partner inside in out.. Because Love is about trust... To trust someone fully, you have to know who they are inside.. You have to know.. This is a truth.. I can depend on this.. I can rely on this.. You build love... layer on layer.. the more work you put into it, the deeper, richer it becomes.. Love isn't fantasy land.. It' not a trip to disneyland... That's easy... Love is coming home from that trip to a backed up septic tank, and the furnace not kicking off... Hard work, sometimes ugly.. oh but the reward is so very sweet... |
how is it that he can eat beets this late at night? and love every last bite?
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life, or something like it.
There are some days that it is not worth getting out of bed, there are situations that scare the heck out of us, and there are things that we would allow ourselves to be derailed from; but in the end, the price we pay for putting things off is higher.
Still i wonder, if the side trip, and experiences acquired were worth the price or not. **sighs** i so miss having that raw attraction to a girl whom i just can not get enough of and who can not get enough of me. Who values sensuality and passion as much as togetherness and a good book!. Oh well... off to bed. |
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...no more chocolate! and no I am not imagining... it's not only in my head... or is it.... :? |
I wanna go back to bed. Im so exhausted. I cant wait for vacation in april...
But it doesnt help me with my exhaustion this morning... Maybe I need to run by Starbucks on the way in??? hmmmm |
heavy on my mind today
.. my best friend i grew up with here, whom has the horses and moved to NC.. well her parents have always been like second parents to me.. i just got word that her mom , is in ICU and may not make it , giving her maybe a day or so.. not sure. she is 90. she has been in my life since i was 14.... wow about 40 yrs.. my heart, thoughts and prayers go out to her today. |
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... that I am in an odd mood today. Of course I am going to let itself play out, but I can't help but wonder what "surprises" come of it.
*thinking about it* Eek. I has a scared now. |
I ache all over. Even my skin hurts.
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How life is really rather ironic....ohh and how I wish I could be in bed right now
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I want Einstein's "Everything" bagels. All I gotta do is drive halfway around the lake for them. Yet, I can't get myself in the car. I seem to be experiencing motivational issues these and must snap out of it.
Switching gears, there is an albino shih tzu for sale for 1000.00$. Blossom wants a sibling really bad. This puppy is all white with pink eyes and a pink snout. Adorableeeee. It's the snout that gets me. I battle with calling them because when I think about housebreaking...ughhh. |
Sleep deprivation.
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odd dreams after a nap
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