If you really knew me you would know that there are two sides to me.On one side im the one who dose what is nessary to get thigs done so my family has the things needed to be as whole as possable.On the other im an old softie with a heart of gold that dose all I can to help ppl that are in need.That dosent mean I will take any kind of snow job from ppl about how things are just to use me..no way not anymore.
I havent dated in forever cause I wasnt ready to step out and take the chance.Things are better now and not because of my new job, but my mind is ready to be part of the world.My heart is still guarded and will be for a long time yet,u c I have a wall around it..not to keep ppl away but to c who really has the desire/want to to really be part of my life or even c if its what they want to be part of.
For a long time I have kept the door shut and bloted to but a fue that I am comfortable with,tho I have reached out to some that I have had some wonderfull conversations with ppl and remain friends with them I will just keep rolling along till the right time happends and maybe the person im to be with ....if it happends..comes along.Till then I will keep doin my thing dealing with life.

If you really knew me, you'd know that I can wiggle my ears :o,
that I take care of everyone, and desperately want someone to do a little taking care of me. That I am Scorpion and it's a scarily accurate description. If you really knew me, you'd know that I'm not nearly as brassy as I appear. I am strong. I love my children fiercely and am a great mother who will go to the ends of the earth for my children.
If you tell me you want something, I'll do everything in my power to make it happen. If you really knew me, you'd know that I'm emotional, pragmatic, compassionate, and passionate about everything I do, go big, or go home is my motto. I talk with my hands, I'm good with my hands, and I'll tell you the truth no matter how hard it is to say, or for you to hear. I have a sixth sense that is both blessing and curse.

If you really knew me, you'd know there is so much more.

If you really knew me
 

If you really knew me you'd know, I'm all about improvement. Constantly, in every area of my life for as long as I live.
I would never settle for mediocrity.
I have no time for fiction.
I mean what I say, or I wouldn't say it.
I'm hard headed but soft hearted.
I'm generous and have a good work ethic.
I have no tolerance for laziness or stupidy.
I'm very kind and forgiving, but if you mistake that for weakness you will have a rude awakening.
I am a Marine. I was a Drill Instructor.
I love the Steelers and Phillies.
I am an identical twin.
Very few things scare me.
I only cry when I could possible lose someone I love.
Integrity must be a priority in your life if want to call me a friend.
I love sports .
I love to travel. Especially anywhere in the Southern Pacific.
I love the ocean and must spend some time in it at least once a year.
I hate winter. I hate snow. I hate cold. I rarely use the word hate.
It takes a lot to get me angry. People almost never make me angry, situations do.
It's almost impossible to offend me, I'm very thick skinned.
I would never cheat.
I've never done drugs in my life, not even pot.
I'm not a big drinker but I love an ice cold beer after I cut the grass.
I am still in love with her.

You'd know that I'm a closet Catholic

that I dont drink or smoke
that my parents and i dont speak
that I love country music
that I have issues with living alone, it scares me
that I was born a mormon but dont practice it
that I want 3 children

*Blushing* Thanking you...

(aahh, the lost 'art' of handkerchiefs! *smile*)

if you really knew me you would know I too have insomnia bad and its because of PTSD. I cant sleep alone.

if you really knew me you would know I am getting so worn down caring for my old dog and I am feeling so much guilt over my weariness, feeling like I dont love her as much, and then feeling foolish for thinking this because I know so much better than that and have told so many other people this is a normal part of the long last days to the end...

if you really knew me you would know not a damn thing I own fits me and I am embarrassed to go out in public. I have dropped 4 dress sizes. I am in a catch 22. I have no money to buy new clothes. I cant get new clothes until I get a new job. I am on the verge of going down yet another size. I am NOT complaining. It is a joy. However, I feel like the incredible shrinking woman!

If you really knew me, you would know I still wear those ear cuffs from the
80's

If you really knew me, you would know that my life just turned upside down recently and that I am mixed bag of emotions and controversial figure right now. An enigma. And Both ends can be said about me and both could be said to be true. And I am staying on an island, isolating until I figure it all out. A healthy thing. I have all my tools on the island. I am prepared. And working hard at it.

If you really knew me you'd know Im the worlds biggest baby when Im sick :)

lol someone told me that once