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Hearing Chessie yelping in obviously extreme pain today, during his examination. :(
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My misunderstanding...
And my mistake in not asking for clarification. And the subsequent awkwardness and potential hurt that arose from that. And also knowing that I am reeling cause I want to fix if so bad. :( |
Steel Magnolias... 'nuff said...
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Feeling grateful for my life and friends who care about me.
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My ex of 21 years, who I left 8 years ago, called to tell me that out (now her) golden retriever had to put down last Monday. The dog was 14 years old...I remember the day I picked her out, we were sitting in the grass laughing at her, because she was tugging on my pants leg. She was the runt, and the rambunctious one f the litter. I bonded with her before we even drove halfway home (a 3 hour trip) I took her through obedience school, we had a great time learning together.
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Yesterday, after spending the day with my mom, I realized just how much her memory is fading. Perhaps it's old age, but the fear of what may or may not be scares me to death. She told me how much she "talks" to my dad and how she has a special star in the sky that she calls by his name.... but my entire life, all I've ever known is how many times she wished she would have left him.
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I didn't QUITE cry but I could have if I allowed it.....
Looking over materials on Craigslist.....I saw an ad for barn wood....click to have a peek....and it shows an intact barn...which will, of course, have to be disassembled for said wood..... and Same deal with some black walnut wood offered...clicked on it and there stood a lovely tree....soon to be dead tree....sigh... |
No bawling here today ... But as I read your posts, it makes me really feel for you.
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Feeling so frustrated towards some people in my life who obviously don't realize/care that there is a limit to which one can handle on their own. Sometimes you break and I guess letting go and letting myself cry it out a bit kinda felt like a bit of a release.
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Driving to work and the car going the opposite direction hit a little squirrel. He was writhing in the street so I went back to make sure he was dead and out of pain. Thankfully he was :watereyes:
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Waking up to news reports about Philippines. Thinking about my kids who no longer have homes or schools. I am just sad over this and really really afraid for this beautiful land and its people.
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The ending of a chapter...that I never believed could ever possibly end.
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The feelings of hopelessness and pure exhaustion at working to be a better version of myself...only to fall short time after time. Nice and sweet only go so far. Wishing i can be seen for more than that.
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The picture of the Pope kissing and holding the face of the man with the disfiguring disease.
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Update: My sister -in -law received a call from her mother today, everyone is fine. They made it though the initial storm, now for the hard part. Thank you to everyone who sent me a kind message and prayers. Julie I hope you get the same good news as we did !!!
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Pain did...and I watched a sappy movie.... :blush:
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A real sappy song; I hate when that happens lol :p
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I work in a really large school of 3500 students. My grade level (Grade 1) has close to 300 students. I don't know every child, but they all know the five English speaking teachers involved in their education.
We found out this morning that one of our students passed away yesterday from a 'brain seizure' (not sure of the technical term as it didn't translate well). All of us are mourning the loss of this child. I still feel so sad. Deb |
The lack of basic human kindness ! What happened to just being nice ! OMG ! I felt like I was surrounded in a cesspool of negative ,angry people today ! I really understand the stress of everyday life and yes I get that the holidays are very difficult for some people but REALLY ! I try very hard to always look at the Bright side but today was very challenging ! Tomorrow is another day ! :)
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watching "precious" again...
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We had our Christmas lunch at work today... there are 6 of us that eat lunch together daily.. We are a motly crew and crack each other up every day... today was no exception..
It ended with the ring leader laughing so hard she chocked on her drink... I offered to beat on her back until she either started to breath or died... yes we really do like each other.. :beerbros::pendulum::bully: |
Last Night I cried for the surgery I just had. I went in with a lump and they ended up giving me a full hysterectomy. I no longer want children and it may seem stupid but for me the choice has been taken away and the loss of all that was in there the good and the bad was something I was not prepared for. I am not the sum of my parts I am still a woman and I keep telling myself that but still ...
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I didn't cry (per se), but I felt teary:
the good kind of tears. My interview with a potential employer went incredibly well and I was invited to continue through extended invitations of interviews, for next week. I left with the feeling that I've found a great place to work. It feels like 'home', to me, which is a fairly good sign. I'm looking forward to next week's activities (and totally prepared). |
Today I went to a Christmas Leather Holiday party... I participated in a round robbin of spankings to Christmas songs.. I was exhausted from laughing so hard I cried. It was hilarious especially when the ten tops doing the spanking couldn't remember the words and invented some of their own.
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Inside Tears
Well, this wasn't an outward cry or show of tears but I felt like I was crying on the inside, definite inside tears, finding my people . . .in the UK :-) Was quite an emotional moment . . . .
A friend gave me a loan of this book titled 'There Is No Word For It' by Laura Bridgeman she will introduce me to her and F2M friends in February 2014. The book has a number of short monologues written by F2M's from in and around London UK. Anyway, enough of me banging on here is part of what I read: DREAMS When I was growing up, I always refused to wear girls' underwear. My grandmother bought boys' underwear for me. Y fronts :-) My mother never asked any questions. When I was growing up I always wanted to be a boy. I had a dream that I would go to bed, and wake up as a boy. Or say now I'm eight and when I'm nine I'll be a boy. But that never happened. It's now some years later. And it has happened. At last . . . . . :mohawk: |
an unexpected email .. tear rolled down my cheek ... ..I couldn't reply even though I wanted to
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Daddi's card....
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I had a few exhaustion tears...
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Saying goodbye. :(
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I didn't cry but I feel like life just got to me today.
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