What is/are your biggest fears?
 

There are small things that creep us out...like giving a speech, worms, spiders, clowns. snakes, bugs....but what is your biggest fear?

I do not fear death.

What I fear most is family.

The Holiday season begins this week and I am sick at my stomach. Yes I go to therapy, yes, I meditate, yes yes yes, I do all the things I am supposed to and am on medication to make me not care.,

Yet.

I am almost frozen with fear.

I fear leaving familiar places and going to a unfamiliar place. I always have to tell myself to stop being ridiculous.

Spiders, clowns, ice cream trucks & over friendly in your face people

:|

Ah, my cake friend...I just had an MRI in an enclosed space...moved during the imaging and he has to do the whole thing over. I fear not getting thru it again. My greatest fear of all is not overcoming PTSD. Bad, bad implications.
You're not a mess, you need to bake my Watergate Cake and feel better.

I fear lots of things. In no particular order:

Germs.

Going to strange places alone.

Going to not so strange places alone, such as the grocery store or the gym.

FIRE.

Enclosed places, theaters.

Job interviews.

Going to the doctor, especially my psychiatrist.

Being alone.

Living by myself.

Finding myself in a situation where someone is being not nice to me, and having no way out (except my ex-wife. I can handle her, oddly.)

Not being able to help my daughter when she is in trouble!

Dying before my work here in this world is finished.

That's all I can think of for now. There may be more that I will add later.

I almost panic to be around a bunch of people. Even my job as I know everyone there it still frieks me out to have to get up in front of everyone and talk.

I fear dying alone. This is very real for me. I live alone and most days, the phone doesnt ring. Not cause my friends dont care but they are all coupled with families and are busy. When I was in the hopsital diagnosed with meningitis and a couple of other times I was in there alone, it hits me. And its the loneliest feeling in the world.

Being burned to death

Fire does scare me

Buildings full of people. I wont go in alone.

My furkids becoming orphans:(

Family reunions are almost more than I can bear to think of. shudder.

my biggest fear is gaurdrails at 80 mph.

I work myself into a fit just knowing that I'll have to face a needle.
Drowning.
Spiders, but only if they're big or hairy...tarantulas totally freak me out.

I don't have fears about my family, but know that my mother is bad for me so I keep my exposure limited....and I've cut my sister out completely purely for self-preservation.

I can handle crowds, enclosed spaces, public speaking...but like many here I wonder sometimes if I'll see my son grow up (having health issues and having had him at 35....I know I likely will, but it's on my mind)....and groups of men laughing can put me on high alert, even when I know it's irrational.

I'm squeamish...so the sight of blood, or even discussion of things bloody or medical that gets too detailed can make me feel light-headed and I get that "seeing in black and white, ears ringing, I'm going to pass out" feeling. It's not a fear exactly, but still something I avoid like crazy.

Biggest fears
 

Loosing the ability to be self determining in my life

Becoming a prisoner in my body

Forgetting all I have fought for and learned and relapsing/regressing to my broken past

Being homeless (it has been nearly 20 years since I was homeless and I still keep an eye out for safe places to sleep and shower)

Crossing bridges by foot, especially those with traffic underneath (for some reason, the rapid movement of the traffic freaks me out).

I'm always afraid that I'll succumb to a sudden temptation to jump and inevitably have to wait for someone to hold my hand and walk me across with my eyes closed.

Words

eeeeuooooow - spiders, good thing my honey's not scared of em.

big crowds - NO!!

most of the other things are getting better with each try :-)

and a fear that's too big to say, cuz I don't want to jinx them :praying:

I have three..

1 Heights without a rail or some sort of barrerer... I can do it but I break out in the sweats and the shakes... Why, yes I do love driving through the mountains....

2 Something horrible would happen to my son.. It used to be my biggest fear, but now that he is out on his own, it's lessened... Lol.. I can't know where he is and what he is doing every day...

3 Not knowing where a loved one is... If someone was supposed to be home at x time and they are not and I haven't gotten a phone call, txt, email... I start to panic... They are dead on the side of the road... I used to say... It's not that I care where you go or how long you stay... I just need to know when to start worring, when to start calling the hospitals and driving the streets.. (I once left a voice mail on a friends phone at 12am telling him that he didn't call me when he was supposed to and now I'm imagining that he has ripped out his stitches and laying in a pool of blood and if he didn't call me back within a half hour, I was calling the ambulance to go make sure he was alive...)

any type of snake, dead, slithering, rattles. ANY

So many of the things that I have feared in the past just don't bother me as much anymore. Don't know if this is a good or bad thing... After going through the deaths of 4 family members and a lover in a short time period, I was very fearful of cancer. Now, I have calmed and know that it is up to me to take care of myself and go in for preventive tests, etc. Not that I am perfect about this at all- those damn personal flaws!! FDR's "there is nothing to fear, but fear itself," rings true for me in terms of doing whatever I need to in terms of combating my own anxieties.

I do fear the rising of the far right to the point of gaining a majority in the US government, however.

What is/are your biggest fears?
 

Elavators :| Don't like them , I avoid them especially if there are a lot of people in there ..Years ago I was in one , it started to get full , and before I could get off on any floor , it stopped real fast and this drunk guy flew into Me and My first reaction was to turn and bodyslam him to the back of the elavator :| He hit that back and slid down , oppssss :blink:


The one at the hotel for the reunion was a lil freaky for Me , but it was never full and it was fast ...lol :)

I think i have to get out of bed and drive to it right now. :(

i fear escalators. Nothing traumatic has ever happened on them, i remember riding them as a child and doing fine. But i fear them now to the point that just walking by one makes my palms sweat and my heart race.

i fear giving all of me, and having the recipient eventually say, "no, i changed my mind, i don't want you anymore".

i fear breaking my right arm.

i fear, right at this moment, that i'm going to have to go upstairs and have a come-to-jesus meeting with my new neighbors. OK, maybe "fear" is the wrong word.....or maybe it's right, but not for that reason. Maybe i really fear the beat down imma hafta leave her with. :|

fear
 

Dying alone in a nursing home.

swimming
 

I've taught hunderds of people to swim, actually do more than swim, to survive in the water. I can teach you too . If you ever want to learn, I can do it in 1 afternoon. Can't teach you to swim in 1 afternoon that takes a few days, but teach you to not fear water anymore and love it, instead of fear it. You can keep your eyes closed the whole time if you like.

a smaller fear of a bigger truth.
 

My greatest (real) fears:

Being trapped, anywhere...

Being home alone in the dark (even at night sometimes) - we had a break in a few years ago, and I was home alone...and I thank God every day that our pups scared the intruder away...but, I've never been the same.

Failing. Miserably.

Falling apart at the seams..and having no tape, thread, or glue.