My Words
 

the haunting that used to be my bliss
cloaked tighter in its vice I barely breathe
I try to shake it off with a little twist
only to find it has hold of me
even as my steele slides in place
standing to fight,I wont lay down
I feel the change on my face
smiles replaced that frown

take my Leave



how many hints do you need
before you finally take heed
to the truth in your face
it keeps hitting you like a mace
wake up dear Ri
its time to leave...
too late now your heart will never mend
should have listened way back then
I seen the signs,I knew the truth
gave you the benifit,but your were a slueth
what a fake what a lie
I bought it all till it blinded my eye
opened my soul to only you
showed you me thru and thru
I just wasnt worth your risk
well I got it now, I bought the disc
Ri~

go ahead dig the knife deeper
it makes my pain that much sweeter
after all its all ive known
pain is all ive been shown
one day I will look back and see
atleast I know now its inside of me
so when im ready to start anew
and feel wrapped again in loves morning dew
I will jump again to that place
be in loves warm embrace

Ri~

subscribing :)

haha thanks Jennifer :)

let me dance on through the rain
mix with the blood from my pain
and hide the tears of my shame
you say I am the one to blame
your trust went and came
just like this driving rain
Ri~

thoughts inside of me
begging to be set free
bottled up no more
its time to let them soar
from my mind out my finger tips
on this page so I cant miss
the reminder each and everyday
to just open up and see how it plays

the world is great the world is grand
I have the world in the palm of my hand
to take a chance or toss away
its your chioce each and everyday
I choose to grab it and hold on tight
one day I know i will find my MS right ;)
Ri~

let it burn be consumed in the flames
tears stream silent falling like rain
wash my face cleanse my soul
bring me back out again whole

with each emotion comes a price
feelings are like rolling the dice
even when one is pure and true
its opposite is waiting to claim you
Ri~

words fall like rain washing over me cleansing my soul
wishing for the time when I can feel whole
whispers in my ear tease my imagination
waking me from this sleep and procrastination
where will it lead on this winding path
hoping that this feeling lasts
broken words shattered past
can you see behind my glass
look deep to find who I am
my walls are like a dam
one look from you and it broke
spilling forth till im soaked
Ri~

in sorrow we see the better side of the you and me
in pain we digress to scared to confess
in love we are blind to all rhythm and rhyme
in hate we are consumed by the flame of doom
in happiness we feel like conquering the world

Ri~

you didnt see,couldnt feel
the hurt inside was so real
finding ways to cope with loss
wondering why its so easy to toss
your words ring false and untrue
I'll never get over you
one day I will lift my head
face the world feeling dead
‎life has been good to me
raise my glass and let it be
have a drink on me toast my pain
lift your glass and let it rain
down your throat it slides
warm as fire as it glides
its ok I learned life is that way
consume me in the flame
so I rise again another day

Ri~

up and down and round again
wondering if today it will end
love falls on deaf ears
bringing the sound of my fear
gently i sway
to the rhythm I play
in my heart so true
the beat is for you
lyrics in my head
fall like spent lead

Ri~

a story for my babygirl...
One day a wolf was walking in the deep woods in search of hys next meal,when hy comes upon a intoxicating scent. familar yet new...hy fills hys senses with it and tracks the scent thru tangled paths and trickling creeks. winding hys way towards the scent hy is tracking,hy comes upon a lil deer,knowing hy is hungry and hasnt eaten in days,hy thinks of just taking what is being offered so easy and free. But the scent hy has been tracking wafts thru the air and hy catches the scent again...wanting what is playing with hys senses,hy leaves the deer to bound away,safe and secure not a puncture from hys wicked teeth not even a backward glance of regret even as hys stomache growls in protest.
making hys way along the scent intensifies,excitedly hy starts to trot faster toward the scent.right when hy thinks hy has it,the scent is fresh but has moved on...hy takes a quick look and sniffs the air warily,just as hy thinks hy has wasted hys day,the scent wafts across hym again...determindly hy starts to follow,with one thing on hys mind...catching whatever is playing with hys senses. as hy bounds thru the trees dense with moss the air is still and quiet. Hy spies a bear....could it be a bear I have tracked to this place? wondering how hy will take it down looking for just the right opening to lunge and attack.....the bear turns, the wolf startled by the eyes of the bear upon hym looking thru hym seeing what and who hy is instantly. can do nothing but bay hys age old song. The bear senses the hunger in the wolf, swipes at her meal to share with the wolf her claws toss it toward the wolf,as she roars her song to hym. Hy knows hy will fiercely protect hys new pack, and bends hys head down to enjoy the meal.

darkness creeps in my soul
looking to claim another whole
freeing me from my restraint
its feeling has me faint
drunk on its power, its fumes
of not caring whom I consume
on my journey to claim you
I wield my blade hold it true
against her skin I slide it to rest
nestled between her breast
I scrape the wax away sharp and quick
pulling her head back with just a flick
anticipation of what comes next
she licks her lips starting to sweat

Ri

A very familar place
another slap in the face
the sting so sharp so bittersweet
pain is there to make my soul sleep
hidden in darkness begging to be free
my soul cries silently
to hide in my wall unable to breathe......


I feel the vice closing round
I welcome the feel and sound
Not this time I declare
you can not take me there
My tears run in silent streams
Ill be free in my dreams
The power you had is no longer here
I shed not one more tear

Ri

how conflicting these feelings running inside
one full of sorrow my face I want to hide
one full of joy just chomping at the bit
has me in wonder the longer here I sit
how can it be two emotions trying to claim
the heart so full of sorrow and pain
yet in its midst joy falls like rain
I toss the coin wondering which side I see
these feelings have taken over me
Ri

shut off closed away
I keep them at bay
gaurded wrapped in my steele
not needing a touch or to feel
laughing at those willing to say
those words that haunted me each day
content in my choice for the way I live
oblivious to all,and not willing to give
in walked you whom opened me up
touched my soul and drank from my cup
here I sit in awe and delite
looking forward to one more night
Ri

morning dew sparkles and glistens in the sun
washing the past from the peteals and blades
taking all that has been left unsaid or undone
bringing with it the hope of a fresh new day
streching up reaching toward the light

opening itself drinking in the new rays
everything seems a little more bright
and the past with its pain a lil more fades



Ri~

Im in the spirit of giving *grins*
 

twas the day of a special tool for use

all day at work she dreamed of her muse

how she would see the gleam in hys eye

knowing it was her that made hys heart fly

at her desk dilligently making sure all was read

while visions of cucumbers danced in her head

wanting this day to come to an end

she wondered if cucumbers could bend

hurriedly she left to rush home that night

the pleasure she was about to recieve gave her delite

on the phone,hys sexy voice fills her ear

she kneels down so hy can take her there

look in the mirror as you ride

hy states as she starts to glide

shaking from the pleasure she begs

now daddi please? with shaking legs

Only when you tell me whats my name!

Daddi she screamed with no shame

yes you may,give me what I want today

gliding ever faster she lets it out all the way



Hope all have a merry cucumber kinda day :D

I hear your words crawl inside my head
numbing my mind keeps me feeling undead
whispers echo the sound is so loud
the haunting has me wrapped in its cloud
memories of words spoken in secret
the feelings it invokes fill me with regret
thinking deeper the thoughts ring true
looking back at the lies told by you
wonder if I can let myself trust once more
pick the broken pieces up off the floor
sweep away these haunting thoughts
maybe then I might have one more shot
lastnight I seen how jaded still I am
time to let go and put it in the trash bin
funny and sad how I didnt see
just how much it still affected me
lessons learned and points I take
everything else feels like a mistake
no more will I let it take its toll
to release my whole heart and soul
to the one deserving is a gift
in her integrity my spirit lifts

Ri~

everyday grows sweeter
every night grows deeper
to look upon your face
I want to make haste
take you in my arms
be your lucky charm
to say good night
and hold you tight
for this is my only wish
to everyday bring you bliss
to enrich your life
make you my wife
protect you against all
catch you when you fall
to hold your hand
walking in the sand
I promise you this
I will never not seek your kiss
first is where you shall always be
never to be taken for granted from me



Ri~

sitting here my head spins
feeling I am on needles and pins
wondering if it will be the same
fearing yet again im to blame
this all feels like before
like she slammed the door
trust is a fickle and funny thing
one misunderstanding down it brings
funny how when all you show is true
why cant they believe you
is it from thier past hurts and fears
or is myself the one gaurded my dear
to this I seek an answer
look inside to find the cancer
one thing I know for sure
her love is what I adore
patience and understanding I give
soon we shall again begin to live
this I know is true
for we work toward me and you
nothing good comes easy
just wish I didnt feel so queasy
she brightens my everyday
shake off the bad I say
you know her heart in everyway
the smile for me makes me sway
emotion wells deep within
I trust that she see's who I am

Ri~

for my amazing friend!
 

She has a heart of gold
in her unselfish way is bold
to give a piece of herself for a friend
wanting to help hym mend
enriching all she has in any way touched
oblivious to her pure soul as such
it humbles me to know someone
so loving and sweet,the list goes on
all I want is to see her lift
soaring high she is such a gift
to all who know her
how happy she is with her Syr
in Hym she can depend and lean
how Hy makes her eyes gleam
she deserves this kind of love
the purest of souls like a dove
all my positive thoughts I send
I am truely blessed to call her friend

Ri~

everyday is a gift ... greet it with a kiss
everynight is a treasure.... and not to be feared or missed
we all lose sight of little things,till one day with it it brings
sorrow to hard to bear, or joy beyond compare

Ri~

letting go and accepting that which is out of your control
realizing that all along you have been a fool
knowing that all things come for a reason
everything has its own time space and season
what you thought was a mistake can be for your good
just look at what you had and where you stood
I am accepting the things as they come
learning to dance in the rain and stop to feel the sun
today I let go of the past, in it the hurt will never pass
I take with me the lessons learned,so I dont repeat the past
Ri

silence falls all around
wicked thoughts do abound
sparking to life a lil grin
along with interest and want of carnal sin

Ri~

My gem
 

wow.. that was interesting, in the share your work poetry thread I ran across the link to analyze whom you write like so I decided to check mine. I am pleasantly surprised, I favor James Joyce the most in like 75% of my poems, but I got Charles Dickens 3 times and a Stephen King as well :| along with two others I cant remember.. but that was way cool