I have never had a relationship due to social anxiety disorder being severe in my teens and 20s. Now In my 30s I have reached a place I can date or have a relationship. But my inexperience is a major wall between me and women. A wall I cant see but they can and when they do they high tail it outta here lol.
I covered this issue more in depth in a topic i posted in the Dating forum so I wont repeat it. But it definately sucks when your told how amazing you are , how cute etc. And when they ask about experience I dont have but one brief date earlier this year. I go from an amazing woman to discard pile.
Its very lonely honestly . Never having recieved affection at all makes me feel like im in some sort of bubble. Hell only affection I ever got was holding hands earlier this year with the one woman I dated briefly that had social anxiety to. I cant put into words how nice it was just for someone to hold my hand. Might sound pathetic , but when you have been lonely as long as I have its just the way it is.
But I havent lost faith theres someone for me somewhere. But they will have to beable to accept me they way iam , inexperience and all. I think Im a pretty good catch myself
