Mel.C. , the lgbt church i attend has a varied congregation in more ways that one and that includes age. I notice most of the women , if notall around my age are married or in a relationship. And the rest are quite a bit older than me. The woman i was intrested in that turned me.down was in her 40s , im 31.
But i do feel very lonely when i go. Especially if she comes up and hugs me trying to be friendly. I would almost rather she just doesnt touch me at all which may sound weird . But its emotionally painful.
But i just sit and watch them all hugging and greeting eachother and its like im sitting still while the world spins around me. But i make myself socialize. It may hurt me to watch everyone else mingle. To watch couples hold hands or hug eachother. But if i didnt go out and atleast try i would just isolate alone at home. So no.matter what i do i hurt. But atleast out there maybe somebody will.notice me eventually
And yes i attend events where ages vary greatly. And when there are women my age they already have a girlfriend or wife.
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