[Kenna]

I really don't like when depression or my PTSD gets to me in the middle of the night...when there's not much to do to get my mind off of it... although I want to stay single and am content single, I don't like it when the depression makes me want to curl up in the fetal position with my head rested on someone who cares, with their arm around me. It's not that I wouldn't like that someone or needing someone... it's the depression or blue feelings that I don't like making me feel this way. I don't like being dependent on someone... or these feelings making me feel dependent on the physical attention of another to bring comfort and consolation. I don't like that depression makes me feel weak and "needy".