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batZeev · 08-31-2016, 09:24 PM

My relationship with my mom is fine I guess. She doesn't know I'm gay but I'm sure she has her suspicions. My biggest issue with her, besides her "hate the sin, love the sinner" homophobic facebook statuses, is the fact that she has started distancing herself from me in public ever since I took on a more butch appearance (I shaved my head and I normally wear sweatpants and a t-shirt, so I look kinda butch now).

For example, she now sits in the next chair over instead of right next to me in public. And when she took me to the airport and hugged me goodbye, she loudly told me to text her "or your brothers incase I'm asleep." I know this seems like a harmless comment, but it's unusual for her. She normally tells me to "keep her posted" and she never says it loud enough for the whole room to hear. It was obvious that she was trying to let people know that we're related.

My mother had me very young and looks very young for her age, and even when I was in high school and took on a more feminine appearance, our neighbors still thought we were lesbians. Now that I'm more butch, I guess her paranoia has gone into overdrive. She has always been someone who cares way too much what other people think of her; she's never had a backbone when it comes to things that actually matter. It's what I've always hated about her.

Since I don't plan on growing my hair out anytime soon, I guess I'll have to visit less, which sucks because we were finally starting to get along but I refuse to be treated like a disease. I guess I'm just disappointed that she didn't open her mind like I thought she would. Instead she switched from "kill the gays" to "hate the sin, love the sinner" (while still posting anti-gay statuses on facebook). She has a niece who is gay, so that's who her homophobic statuses are usually about. She sees nothing wrong with what she says and my attempts at opening her mind over the past 10 years have gotten nowhere. It's starting to look like she's not going to be a huge part of my life.

Sorry my first post is a rant. I just needed to get that off my chest.

08-31-2016, 09:24 PM	#98
batZeev Junior Member How Do You Identify?: Butch Join Date: Aug 2016 Location: 'Murica Posts: 1 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 0 Thanked 11 Times in 1 Post Rep Power: 0	My relationship with my mom is fine I guess. She doesn't know I'm gay but I'm sure she has her suspicions. My biggest issue with her, besides her "hate the sin, love the sinner" homophobic facebook statuses, is the fact that she has started distancing herself from me in public ever since I took on a more butch appearance (I shaved my head and I normally wear sweatpants and a t-shirt, so I look kinda butch now). For example, she now sits in the next chair over instead of right next to me in public. And when she took me to the airport and hugged me goodbye, she loudly told me to text her "or your brothers incase I'm asleep." I know this seems like a harmless comment, but it's unusual for her. She normally tells me to "keep her posted" and she never says it loud enough for the whole room to hear. It was obvious that she was trying to let people know that we're related. My mother had me very young and looks very young for her age, and even when I was in high school and took on a more feminine appearance, our neighbors still thought we were lesbians. Now that I'm more butch, I guess her paranoia has gone into overdrive. She has always been someone who cares way too much what other people think of her; she's never had a backbone when it comes to things that actually matter. It's what I've always hated about her. Since I don't plan on growing my hair out anytime soon, I guess I'll have to visit less, which sucks because we were finally starting to get along but I refuse to be treated like a disease. I guess I'm just disappointed that she didn't open her mind like I thought she would. Instead she switched from "kill the gays" to "hate the sin, love the sinner" (while still posting anti-gay statuses on facebook). She has a niece who is gay, so that's who her homophobic statuses are usually about. She sees nothing wrong with what she says and my attempts at opening her mind over the past 10 years have gotten nowhere. It's starting to look like she's not going to be a huge part of my life. Sorry my first post is a rant. I just needed to get that off my chest.