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Soft*Silver · 03-18-2017, 10:47 AM

recovery is important to me. I had 23 year sobriety when I fell apart for one day...jumped back into recovery and now have 9 years. I cant believe its been 9 years! It seems like just yesterday! LOL. That just goes to show you how quick times flies in recovery! Well, when we arent white knuckling it!

I dont know what I would do without recovery. Even in recovery I have made some stupid choices and faced the consequences, but the difference is, that I was sober facing them and I didnt add to them! Even when I relapsed, it was a good thing. I was broken and didnt realize it until I snapped. Once snapped, I started working a good program again and faced my own inventory. I am still working on myself to this day, and will be until the day I pass from this earth. Its a progress, not a finish line.

I have such a wonderful relationship with my daughter and my two grand daughters. I had so much to resolve with my kid from my addiction. We were in so much pain together and individually from it. I know if I had not worked so hard on it, we would not be speaking today, let alone, be the happy family that we are.

I am also in a wonderful relationship, that for the first time ever in my life, I am not struggling within it. I use to join up with people based on my perception of them and my perception of myself. Sadly, I wasnt seeing very clearly and it negatively affected all those relationships. Once I relapsed, i did a very thorough inventory of myself, and refused to engage in any relationship. I was scared, alone, and tired of being in pain. I just wanted all that to stop. I worked hard on myself and as I did, some wonderful people came into my life, including the person I am now married to. I was able to clearly see him as well as myself, which started us out on the right foot. I was also able to evolve further into myself in this relationship, as I explored all those preconceived notions we are handed about relationships. Its been wonderful to grow instead of be swallowed up! LOL

I am glad this thread is still around...

03-18-2017, 10:47 AM	#2642
SoftSilver Infamous Member How Do You Identify?: femme Preferred Pronoun?: she Relationship Status: Married Join Date: Nov 2009 Location: rose cottage Posts: 5,592 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 8,948 Thanked 15,903 Times in 4,062 Posts Rep Power*: 21474857	recovery is important to me. I had 23 year sobriety when I fell apart for one day...jumped back into recovery and now have 9 years. I cant believe its been 9 years! It seems like just yesterday! LOL. That just goes to show you how quick times flies in recovery! Well, when we arent white knuckling it! I dont know what I would do without recovery. Even in recovery I have made some stupid choices and faced the consequences, but the difference is, that I was sober facing them and I didnt add to them! Even when I relapsed, it was a good thing. I was broken and didnt realize it until I snapped. Once snapped, I started working a good program again and faced my own inventory. I am still working on myself to this day, and will be until the day I pass from this earth. Its a progress, not a finish line. I have such a wonderful relationship with my daughter and my two grand daughters. I had so much to resolve with my kid from my addiction. We were in so much pain together and individually from it. I know if I had not worked so hard on it, we would not be speaking today, let alone, be the happy family that we are. I am also in a wonderful relationship, that for the first time ever in my life, I am not struggling within it. I use to join up with people based on my perception of them and my perception of myself. Sadly, I wasnt seeing very clearly and it negatively affected all those relationships. Once I relapsed, i did a very thorough inventory of myself, and refused to engage in any relationship. I was scared, alone, and tired of being in pain. I just wanted all that to stop. I worked hard on myself and as I did, some wonderful people came into my life, including the person I am now married to. I was able to clearly see him as well as myself, which started us out on the right foot. I was also able to evolve further into myself in this relationship, as I explored all those preconceived notions we are handed about relationships. Its been wonderful to grow instead of be swallowed up! LOL I am glad this thread is still around... __________________ Pole bachit, a lis chuye. The field sees, the forest hears