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I wanted to come here to open my heart...once again,..to the wonderful friends & supporters I have !

About 2 months ago I began to have really severe pain, deep down in my bones, esp in the long bones. Initially was just hip & shoulder. Then about a month ago I began to have long bone pain, loss of appetite, weight changes, nausea after eating, and a sudden onset of pain in ribs, shoulders, neck, & down into my hands. I saw an oncologist who ordered a bone scan, a CT of whole body, and a plethora of labs.

I was very concerned & tried to remain positive, and not think the worst. Having survived cancer once, it was a difficult thing to do. I pulled on my inner reserves, had an amazing support group, & weathered the next couple weeks.

Today I saw the oncologist. While I do NOT have multiple myeloma, which was the suspect, I have severe anemia, and RA (rheumatoid arthritis, a severe case of it.)

That is okay because now I have a definitive diagnosis & a plan of action. While treatment varies and can be hard on one's body, I at least KNOW what I am dealing with.

Next step is to see a rheumatologist, get a plan of attack going, and hoping to be able to get these bouts tamped down to a minimum of discomfort. I have answers now! That was so stressful NOT knowing.

So I have an incredible team of loved ones, an amazing partner, & wonderful support system in place. Now off to the battlefield I go....I will slay this "dragon", too.

Thanks for listening, for your kind words, warmth, & support during this very trying time. As I usually do, I smile, and remain positive, & focused on a plan of attack now.

Peace & much love to you all....I am so happy knowing now what I have to work with....