I am my own self, who I know I am and who I love.
I do not fit into the traditional girly girl, I do not fit into an andro description - I am myself.
Very femme in that I love my feminine self, sparkles, glitter, dresses etc.
Very myself in that I recognize that I love all the feminine things but do not love to take the trouble to wear them.
I am comfortable in myself, my non-made-up self, in jammies or torn up shorts and tshirt. And I don't have to wear dresses or makeup to be recognized as a professional, strong career woman.
But I love to be dressed up and made up and feeling very lovely and fancy. (but I look and feel weird in makeup)
I love the power of myself, knowing I can manage and rock my own life, from career, leadership, finances and owning my own home -- and am strong enough to let the right butch in to be a partner in my life, helping, contributing and creating a shared life.
I am learning the power of handing over some of that power and control and letting myself depend on another, even though I don't NEED him - but I WANT him.
I am also learning the depth of my traditional girl as I plan a wedding and discover how deeply rooted my love of all of those little girl Barbie dreams are, even though I never recognized them before. I used to scoff at them - now I recognize the joy and power of them and embrace them.
I am powerful and I own myself in my own femme-ness. I make myself more powerful by allowing my butch to have a role in my life and sharing some of the power with him as my partner.
And I am very silly. And smart. And funny. And good at math. And a hater extraordinaire.
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Alice laughed: "There's no use trying," she said; "one can't believe impossible things."
"I daresay you haven't had much practice," said the Queen. "...Why, sometimes I've believed as many as six impossible things before breakfast."
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