[Medusa]

It was such a bittersweet moment packing today.

I found one of C's earrings against the baseboard in the room where she took her last breath. There is nothing spectacular about it at all...just a small black costume "diamond" stud that she probably paid a couple of bucks for.
And now that I think of it, I'm smiling again because she had no problem spending her money on expensive shoes and boots but she was always fond of cheap costume jewelry.

I smiled when I found the earring because one of our last lucid conversations involved her telling me that she lost her earring and that I probably ate it.

It's been just over 2 months since she died. I still pick up the phone to call her and my heart still hurts like hell when I realize I can't.
She'd kick my ass if she saw me still raw-as-fuck and numb to the bone all these weeks later but it's what I've got to work with.

I put the black plastic diamond in one ear and had a total John Waters moment from "The Breakfast Club" where John puts in the diamond and raises his fist as "Don't You Forget About Me" starts playing.

Don't worry, C, I won't. <3