Today I did 40 minutes on the stairmaster (my favorite one). It seems a bit broken in it's settings, making it hard to measure what I was doing, so I had to turn to primitive measurements: sweat, breathing hard, feeling of heart beat
. I'm a "numbers" girl and like to watch exact patterns so it wasn't exactly comfortable but not worth reporting it broken when I can still get a great work-out with it.
I've been avoiding the weight floor which is not good. That's the spiritual part of my work-out and also healing. It's where I not only lift weights but also stretch and the like. Sometimes it's hard when I haven't been doing something for awhile to do it. When I'm back in the habit, it's much easier. Also, I've been tired, forcing myself to get up early so I don't fall into a sleep pattern of going to bed too late, which I am prone to. But now it's at the point of going to bed too late and waking up without enough sleep. I must give it all time. And not be too hard on myself.
I talked with Taylor today for over an hour. We really talked about a lot. She told me that Ross, her billionaire, has been traveling, so she hasn't been seeing him, and she was sad about that. She has unprotected sex with him when she is with him and is hoping to get pregnant. She told me a new bit of information about Ross. Please keep in mind that she is his house manager so this is all like a movie! She said that he has about 4 women who he brings home separately and they sleep over. He is in his late sixties and they are in their thirties, just like Taylor. She said that he assured her that he doesn't sleep with them. WHAT?!!!!!! It felt like how we all believed Michale Jackson was just sleeping while staying over night in bed with boys. She still says that Ross said that Taylor is different and that he will get divorced and marry her. Oh, billionaire men (sigh).
Taylor is also dating a man named Mark who sounds like a typical Taylor date- a complete asshole! She said that recently she brought him a crystal with healing properties because he was going through something and he refused to take it and yelled at her. Similarly she once brought him watermelon and he freaked out on her. What a charmer!
Taylor asked me if I think that things will work with her and Ross or her and Mark. Normally I don't give advice (unless I'm in the mood
) UNLESS someone asks. Somehow I knew with Taylor I should tread lightly even though she asked. I paused and said, "I think you have not met the right person yet." I think she teared up a bit.
She referred to a woman in the gym named Karen who I also know, but who is distant in personality, as her "best friend." Wait!!! Last time she told me Hilary was her best friend! Is everyone in the locker room her best friend except me?! # totally envious and pissed! Karen is in her fifties and is a scientist who is VERY stylish in an alternative way. Taylor told me that Karen has been saying to Taylor the last 3 times Karen has seen her in the locker room: "You are anorexic. You look like a starving child." Taylor has been responding by crying and telling Karen that it's her migraine meds making her lose weight. Taylor told her after the third time to stop doing it. I would never treat Taylor that way. I would make a much more thoughtful best friend. Humph!
Taylor ALSO told me that since she's been losing more weight, La La (the other anorexic) came up to her and said, "Do you have people ask why you are so small? I get that, and it's so annoying." Taylor said yes and agreed. Taylor told me that Hillary was with La La and La La was doing spit and chew. Do you know what that is, reader? That's when you chew a bite of something and then spit it out. La La was doing that with an apple. Taylor also told me that La La has to take a certain number of steps up stairs every day and it has to be done while she's carrying her purses. Taylor said, "I think La La has issues." I nodded and thought, "Don't we all, Taylor. Don't we all."