[Bèsame*]

My emotions have been an array of ups and downs these past couple of days. I met a wonderful woman. Started a friendship then she initiated the flirting. I knew what I was up against, there were a couple of things she was dealing with. But alas, so was I. Caregiver to Mom and all the entailed.

We had a couple of great days as a dating couple, unsure what the future held.

Last week we had dinner. But before that, she took me by the hand and said she wanted to show me something. We went into the kitchen. She proceeded to open each and every cupboard showing me what was in them. Saying, if I needed anything, this is where it it. She had bought all kinds of fresh food. The coffee I liked. Then kissed me in the kitchen.
Tell me, that was some serious thought and effort. After dinner, we again danced in the front room to my favorite song, Tennessee Whiskey. Oh my. This woman really likes me.
We had a wonderful night together. She spoiled me with breakfast. I was invited back later that day.

Not even 3 hours after I left...I get a text. " I missed you when you left. But, this is freaking me out"

BUT??

we had a long conversation. It's not you. It's me. It ended before it started. I told her to take some time. I'm heart broken. This is hard because it was so good.

Now I've brought my Mom home. I have my own stress. But it sure would be great to have some joy. That she brought to me.

What is with the other freaking out?? I check all their boxes yet?? Tell me why?? This happened a few years back as well. Do I attract that?? I know I'm not that perfect..LOL!!!