Thanks so much for posting and sharing of yourself. As a woman of size, it's hard in our culture to have good self-esteem. Associating myself with fat positive/ size positive images, people, and politics can be helpful in changing the dominant fat hating bias within our society that insinuates itself into our psyche as fat people. One blog that I read when I want to connect with a stronger side of myself is:
http://www.bigfatblog.com