[Arwen]

OH honey. I'm glad you have a supportive partner. It's incredibly hard to go through this. You've gotten some great advice about making sure you take care of yourself. I spend two weeks in the hospital with my mother. I mean I lived in her room with her. She was not where your mom is.

It's one of the hardest things I think we can go through--to see the person who represented so much to us deteriorate and know there is not a single damned thing we can do to stop it.

My mom had End Stage Renal Disease as well. They put her on the transplant list only to find that she had inoperable cancer. It's not easy. I totally get your prayers. They are not wrong. Do not blame yourself for those emotions, honey. They are real. They are valid.

Just more hugs in general.