Going through the hell part now of having opened my mouth and said something that hurt someone badly this past Saturday and
I deserve every bit of it and much, much more. She is getting her anger out now and I am hanging with her. I am taking every bit of it because she deserves the opportunity to express how she feels about what I said. I will not run off and abandon her again. I am hanging with her to the end of this, wearing my big boy boxers and taking it like a big boy - regardless of what happens.
When I am insensitive as well as selfish and do not think about what I am saying ... there are consequences.
I do not want to hurt her like this ever again.
Damn, as she has always said, I can really be a 2x4 butch. Oh, I wish I could erase what I said. Everything was going so good and smooth on Saturday, then I had to go and be a dickhead.
Big changes are in the making for me. It does not matter if she decides she will or will not want to speak to me again - I am determined to change this particular trait in me and by damn, I will!
I am just praying we can move past this incident. I do not want to lose her again. I cannot stand the thought of not being able to talk to her anymore. It makes me so sad to think of that.
Will this ever blow over? Last Saturday afternoon seems like an eternity ago. I am stressed to the max. Oh well, too bad - it is all my fault. This one is entirely on me.
I love her.
Happy Day to all you Planet people!