Today I was busy rummaging through the sale boxes up near the cash registers at Office depot, muttering to myself. I looked up and there was a butch femme couple about my age right there beside me with their buggy. I grinned, asked them how they were doing - being friendly ... said something about trying to find a particular flash drive in that bin. They both spoke. The femme was very friendly and chatty but when I tried to say more to the butch, I got that "wary eye" look of someone who maybe has been burned. Everyone knows what I am talking about. I continued to speak only to the butch looking at her eye to eye as I spoke but could never get anything friendly going.
Later, it made me remember I have been that same way when a lone, random butch we did not know tried to be friendly with us in passing. Though I have not been able to get a sample in years and years of how I would react now because of singledom ... I do hope I have changed to the point that I don't feel so territorial ... or jealous ... or protective ... or ...what ever along those lines. I know when I think about it, I do not like having been that way in the past ... it is embarrassing to tell this on myself in an open forum ... but what the hell ... the truth is the truth.
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