what you will not do for yourself, GOD will do for you. I tend to isolate. I use the internet to give me my social fix. So, my laptop broke for about two weeks during the period I hit my two year anniversary. Haha. Good one, GOD.
I was so screwed up after my relapse that I walked around this year thinking I was heading into three years. Giggling. It just feels like three years worth of work in two years.
Nov 11 two years ago I drank like a pig. The next day I had a drink to get the courage to tell my kid I had relapsed. The following day I drank because she told me in a phone call she never wanted to have anything to do with me again. November 13th. Two years. My daughter and I are so close now. I have uninterrupted sobriety. A sponsor. A home group. A working program. Much better physical, emotional and spiritual health. I am in my own home. I am loved by my family and friends. I am in the process of obtaining my CD counselor credentials as well as my certified therapist credentials. Which will open doors to employment which are closed to me because I lack these two things in this state.
I am doing really great. I am so glad I relapsed. It stopped the suffering because it ended the denial....
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Pole bachit, a lis chuye.
The field sees, the forest hears
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