[JustLovelyJenn]

He is...

... in a million ways... and I just have to get them out...

... for too long I have thought I wanted the instant relationship. I was wrong. I was only scared of being alone. I'm not afraid anymore. I know who I want to be and what I want to do with my life. I know I can do it, even if its going to be hard, and long, and stressful. But, I want all that... FOR ME, not for anyone else.

So, what exactly do I want out of a partner? I want date nights, outings with my children, someone to go to when all the stress and strain get to me, someone to support when the same happens to them. I want... "Your place or Mine?" and "Are you free this weekend?". I want anticipation and excitement, passion and contentment. I want to be with someone else and still be myself. I want flowers and candle lit dinners. I want a true courtship...


... and yes, I think that is what He wants too. It makes me excited to think about. I can look at the future and wonder what possibilities are ahead of me, without wondering how much I am going to need to adjust to accommodate it.

That's a very big deal to me.