[sylvie]

Originally Posted by Miss Scarlett

Apart from quitting smoking, this is the hardest thing I have done. But it can be accomplished.

I will tell you that it took a long time for me to stop seeing the old Miss Scarlett in the mirror. 99% of the time I don't see her. But occasionally I don't recognize myself because I expect to see the old me. The new battle is to stop thinking like her and I am winning that battle too. My doctor warned me about this when we started on this journey.

i can relate..
i still cant look at myself in the mirror..
let me rephrase, hmm.. i look at parts of myself in the mirror, but never really LOOK at myself in the mirror.. does that make sense? i hope so lol..
over a 2 year period i little over 80 lbs.. i gained about 15 lbs back. after losing that weight though, i still seen the old sylvie too.. heck i still do..

my biggest battle in all of this is overcoming an eating disorder.. although i am doing very well, the urge to binge & purge comes easily when i stress a lot.. so between the weight i want to lose, and the guilt over the binging ive done over the years, it makes for a very disappointed syl.. looking in the mirror is accepting that reality, it's hard..

i'm so glad you are winning that battle, i 'need' to win that battle as well.. i've a ways to go yet, but i'm taking the steps to ensure i do this the healthy way, maintain it, surrounding myself with tons of positive support and i'm not looking back thanks to people like you! =)