Of course you feel "broken", proximitywithoutintimacy, you've just been hit with a ton of
CRAZY all at once.
Easy does it, easy does it.
Give yourself time to crawl out from beneath all this
CRAZY so you can get your bearings.
Here's a few things you may wish to consider as you do that (and, it's all hers): alcoholism, cutting behavior, insincerity, impulsivity, transient sexual liaisons, drama, attention seeking, bad boundaries, a lack of empathy, cell phone abuse.... (I'm sure you can add to the list if you think about it.)
You may just come out the other side of this situation with a ton of gratitude. I personally think you dodged a bullet.
- Chazz (a substance abuse counselor for 18 years)