Chazz, thank you.
I think it's easier for me to deal because the last several days, I've been contemplating just how crazy and out of her mind this woman is... and I don't need that in my life anymore. I mean the fact is, when she was with me, she was finally building a good relationship with her mom for the first time since she came out, she was going to counseling and getting medication for her disease, going to school... and now, all of that has fallen apart. She's burned all of her bridges, and sunk down into a spiral of self-destruction. I'm not saying, "oh, her life was so much better with me" but rather that I was a good thing in her life, a good person - and people who genuinely care about her are very rare in her life. It's just sad, I guess.
"It's not me, it's
you."
^^^ My new phrase... it actually helps a lot, because I know I'm worth so much more, and she's drowning in her sickness... I can't be her saviour anymore, and someday, she'll realise just how much damage she has done and hopefully learn to love herself enough to fix it.
Done rambling, haha... as far as blocking her number goes, she hasn't tried to call lately... though I'm contemplating changing my number. I only wonder about all the phone calls I'd have to make if I do that (dentist, doctors, counselors, school, work, etc. etc.).
Thanks to everyone for being so nice and supportive
