[sylvie]

Jo , (((((hugggggz)))))
that was the kindest thing ever, thank you!
i agree, this is about the journey!
i think, though, rather than being the journey for awhile..
it was embarrassment about falling off that journey in a sense..
it can be the biggest struggle at times, i would beat myself up so terribly..
and keep myself away from the support i had, because it's easier to be hard on myself that way..

ooo, talk about an honesty kick right there for me, lol..
i'm on a roll today, calling myself out all over the dang place *smiles*
i'm not being hard on myself though, it's actually really a refreshing feeling..
and the exact push i need, by letting my demons out..
knowing people are reading it, is HARD for me lol.. this is stuff i've kept in for years and years..but it feels really good to be making solid changes to my life, for the bettter of my health & happiness..

so one change i need to make, i guess.. is not to push my support away..
but embrace it, in my times of need.. i'm really so happy this thread is here, i actually went back and read old posts from the very beginning and kind of walked along my journey just here in this thread alone since it began..i've learned so much thanks to you all - and the support has been amazing!!

it's so nice to know we have a place we can talk about this, and grow and learn and not be judged for the lil setbacks.. ♥