[Tommi]

Originally Posted by Domestic Diva

this will be the first time I have spoken of this online, hell I don't talk about it much in person. I have stage 3a breat cancer. I have been battling cancer of one type of another for a few years, first just benign tumors, then uterine cancer, after a hysterectomy I was good for a few years then one day there they where...3 lumps in my left breast.went it for a checkup, then the biopsys...then the 5 days wait...which I think was the hardest part...then the news that changed everything. they wanna take my boobs, and I know that choosing between cancer and my clevage is a no brainer. Im a girlfriend and a mother, but I love my cleavage....I finally found a doc that will use my body fat for reconstruction...yayy! tummy tuck and new clevage! went in for pre op stuff and my white blood cell count is in the 100,000, for those that don't know thats WAY more then it should be. So now I take pills and wait some more....
I, at first, felt like this was punishment for some awful thing I had done and then I thought about my life and I could't come up with one thing I had done that was that bad, I mean I know I am not perfect but jesus...I'm not that bad either. I made a bucket list...Everyone thought that was funny, but what if they can't fix it, what if I die?
I dont wanna go out feeling like I haven't done anything I wanted to...ya know...now I live in a new place, and I don't have a lot of adult friends...that sucks more cause I feel the depression...So I am seeking new peoples to relate with, people inside and outside my community to laugh with and talk about stuff other then cancer, but I guess I have to talk about this stuff too

Hi there.. Well, if you were close by, we could chat about that Club we became members of without even asking. That one that makes you realize your mortality, and that makes every day matter. And it's scary.

Have you researched ALL your options? Looked for Clinical Studies in your neighborhood. I signed up for one after being diagnosed with Uterine cancer almost 7 years ago.

If there is anythiong I can do, holler, write, scream, send smoke signals, or PM me. My email addy is in my profile.

This is from NIH.gov website.

Stage IIIA (operable)

Modified radical mastectomy or radical mastectomy with either radiation or chemotherapy. Radiation could be preoperative external beam radiation or postoperative external beam radiation with a booster dose to primary site. Chemotherapy could be CMF, CA, CAF, CMFP, CMFVP, L-PAM and 5-FU with or without tamoxifen.

Here is a link to look at what's new and what's going on in the research and clinical trials. http://www.cancer.gov/clinicaltrials...archid=8960422

So, stay in touch. and PS: I'm glad you are going through with the mastectomy, with or without the reconstruction, the cancer needs to go. Bang Bang