[Isadora]

I quit smoking (again) 29 days ago. I have smoked on and off since I was 13 or 14. I did the patch for four days but broke out in a rash, so after 4 days I went cold turkey. It was time. I did it for me, but it was also a gift to someone I love who wanted me to stop. Love and devotion is a great motivator for me.

The quitting smoking and the exercising are the best things for me. Dealing with smoking people around me is horrid. The third day I quit I went to a party where everyone was smoking in every room...hard to get away from it. LOL Sometimes that is no different than trying to get away from sugar!

My personal trainer is a body builder gay boy. I love him. I hate him. I love him. I hate the mean dirty bastard. I love the mean dirty bastard. I posted a pic of him in my gallery. He is also glad I have stopped smoking and loves and kisses me into doing what I need to do for myself. Somehow I find it easier to follow through with someone who also LIVES what they demand of me. LOL

I am not good at journals. In fact I don't really do them at all. Talullah Bankhead once said, "Only the good girls keep dairies, the bad ones don't have the time." I have tried, I do better at writing poetry and prose to express my feelings! But that is just me!