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& all those years nobody loved me
except her & i screamed at her & spanked her
& threw her on the bed & slammed the door when
i was angry & desperate for her father's love,
& I can't undo all those times i frightened her
& she loves me, she still loves me,
i can't undo needing &
being tortured by loneliness
until i cried out at her,
who loved me even in my needy loneliness. & how
do mothers, unloved, love their children?
the wonder is that we do, we
do not leave the little girl, we
do not destroy
we cry out in terror we love
our little girls
who must have a better life ...

Alta

For Mum, I love you xxx