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undone · 06-25-2011, 01:38 AM

Why am I insignificant to those that are closest to me? My family by blood and that was chosen?

Why do those that are only here for a time seem to care so much more than those that have known me for most of my life?

Why am I so painfully shy at times but loud and playful at others?

Will I ever gain trust back in my heart? Will I ever find the right one I should trust?

Why is it that half of my grown family choose to live alone day in and out just working going home and watching TV or sleeping, while the other half can't seem to sit still for a moment? We were all raised together so what makes the difference? I know the quite shy ones do not want to be so reserved or shy, so how do you learn to fight that?

Why am I be silly and so in the moment having a great time, then in an instant I will have a moment of self awareness and close off?

Will I ever have a decent job again?

What great things did i do that warrant my blessed luck with happy funny healthy animals when they come into my life?

For all the things that so happen in my life i wounder how i happen to be as strong as i am and really have good luck when i would get pulled in to the undertow with out it?

and my favorite what miracle did i pull off to deserve such an intelligent earnest thoughtful independent funny forward thinking step son that chooses to remain in my life even after his mother and i have ended our commitment to each other?

How is it this brilliant boy looks like me and acts like me more than his mother? and is it awful of me to take pride in that?

06-25-2011, 01:38 AM	#163
undone Junior Member How Do You Identify?: me! Preferred Pronoun?: Woman Relationship Status: Sold! Join Date: Mar 2011 Location: Long Beach, CA but home is Portland Posts: 96 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 174 Thanked 178 Times in 63 Posts Rep Power: 507771	Why am I insignificant to those that are closest to me? My family by blood and that was chosen? Why do those that are only here for a time seem to care so much more than those that have known me for most of my life? Why am I so painfully shy at times but loud and playful at others? Will I ever gain trust back in my heart? Will I ever find the right one I should trust? Why is it that half of my grown family choose to live alone day in and out just working going home and watching TV or sleeping, while the other half can't seem to sit still for a moment? We were all raised together so what makes the difference? I know the quite shy ones do not want to be so reserved or shy, so how do you learn to fight that? Why am I be silly and so in the moment having a great time, then in an instant I will have a moment of self awareness and close off? Will I ever have a decent job again? What great things did i do that warrant my blessed luck with happy funny healthy animals when they come into my life? For all the things that so happen in my life i wounder how i happen to be as strong as i am and really have good luck when i would get pulled in to the undertow with out it? and my favorite what miracle did i pull off to deserve such an intelligent earnest thoughtful independent funny forward thinking step son that chooses to remain in my life even after his mother and i have ended our commitment to each other? How is it this brilliant boy looks like me and acts like me more than his mother? and is it awful of me to take pride in that?