It's not really about the TV.
I'm thinking about a TV. We need one. She talked about us going in halves on one. It's a nice one. All the bells and whistles. ... HDTV. LED. 1080p. 240 hz. 47" screen. ... I want it. And if we halved the price we could afford it. So what is my problem....
OK, maybe this isn't about the TV. It's about me being in my mid-30s and not having anything to show for my life because I've always invested so much in my relationships. I spent the past 10 years investing in the wants of my other half. When I wasn't being his cheerleader I was working my butt off so he could have all of the toys he wanted for all his hobbies and next hairbrained schemes.
So, after 2 failed marriages I'm insanely gun shy about sharing property or paying anyone else's way for anything. I'd rather wait, go without TV for 2 months, and buy the whole thing myself. Because that way, if the universe pees in my cornflakes again, if another relationship dissolves on me, I know who owns that fucking TV.
*sigh*
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