[Mister Bent]

Originally Posted by Matthew

Good morning everyone!

Well I'm noticing some changes in Myself and honestly, I dont know if I really like them. I'm having a hard time getting on track and over the last couple of days not only do I notice that My feet are swollen, but also My lower legs are getting fatter (the skin is much tighter). I haven't been able to stick to My goal of less pop and such, but I walked across the street to 7-11 this morning and I just couldn't help but feel that things aren't right. My right foot is especially swollen and its not easy to walk, its like 2 times the normal size and I know that isn't good.

I know that I need to change, for My health, and it scares Me to make these changes but I know that they have to happen. I want to go on Weight Watchers and would love to go to meetings but I know that I can't afford it, but the points seem to be working for everyone else so I really wanna give it a try though right now I'm not sure how I can do it. I'm going to start today by going back over all of the pages in this thread and writing down things I wanna try ~ tips, recipes etc which will hopefully start Me down the right path. I'm sick of being fat, sick of feeling sluggish and tired and just plain icky .......... something has to give and I'm no longer going to allow My health to suffer because of Myself.

Matthew, I am sincerely concerned for your well-being right now. The symptoms you are describing in your feet and legs are nothing to take lightly, and I strongly suggest you get to a doctor, or at the very least do some immediate research. This is nothing to take a "wait and see" attitude about. I have some thoughts on what you could do to help yourself right now, but not being a medical professional, I hesitate to do so.

I think it's a really great start that you will go back through this thread and try to glean tips that you think will work for you. Over the past week or so, I've seen you post elsewhere on the site about what you've been eating and I understand what you're saying here about suffering because of yourself. It does seem you've been engaging in a kind of self-sabotage, something I think to which many of us here in this thread can relate. It takes many forms, and food is a common one, you are definitely not alone in that. Please continue to reach out to people in this thread, I think you will find a lot of compassion and support.

I do have one suggestion for you. See if you can calculate what you spend each week at 7-11, I know it is not a cheap place to buy food. Then see what a week of Weight Watchers will cost you. I'm reasonably certain you will find not only that you could trim your 7-11 budget and afford WW, but that the value would greatly surpass anything you can find at 7-11. WW often offers discounted rates, etc. And I'm willing to bet if you went to a local chapter, and stated your case, that they would work with you.

Please look into this, WW offers amazing support and once you see that first good loss, I believe very strongly that you will feel so much better and be your own source of inspiration. Please do this today.