[foxyshaman]

Originally Posted by PinkieLee

(((((((((Anya))))))))))

Honey, you and I must have been on the same page this weekend. My boo told me how much she wanted some chocolate chip cookies (you know the break apart kind). Well, I went ahead and bought them... yeah, 'cause SHE wanted them. Needless to say, I only baked 6 of them for us, but caught myself in full closet eating mode eating raw cookie dough in the kitchen while she was watching the football game. Ugh, why do I do this?!

Anyway, later last night, I took a lil' quiet time to kind of put things back into perspective for myself. I did some journaling to ask: Why do I allow negative self talk to creep up? Why do I have those days that I allow myself to be my own worst enemy. I soaked in the bath tub, did some reading and woke up this morning refreshed and ready to start anew!

Anya and PinkieLee I can really relate to what you both have said. I have had to throw stuff into the garbage. At that point I try to go back to my journal to track what I was feeling that day and how I feel about myself that day and determine if I can find my triggers. Sometimes I have to think and think, and think some more, to bring forward into my conscious light what the f*ck I was thinking when I mindlessly went for the comfort food. It is not always 1 + 2 + 3 = my emotions/thoughts. Does this get any easier?

I baked pumpkin and lemon custard tarts for Thanksgiving dinner. But... I made sure I baked in the morning and put them into their containers as soon as I could before I was tempted to eat any. Then I sent the remainder home with my kids. And I only had two small tarts after supper. No gravy, no potatoes and no bread oh and no cheese. I did make yummy hummus to eat with the fresh cut up veges I brought. I was using my noggin'

I am so new at trying to understand my emotional eating. If anyone has tips or inspiring stories I would happily take the encouragement.