[foxyshaman]

As I stood staring blankly into my closet wondering what I would wear, I *really* saw my weight. I have shirts that I had worn that used to fit me. I am happy at what is fitting me now. What is *almost there". And I came to this place. Where the hell was I? How did I not know just how much of my emotions, vulnerability.... etc I was eating. I look back now and I wonder just where was I? How absolutely disconnected I was from my emotions and physical body. I shake my head in disbelief. How did I not know?? Disassociation has so many masks.

So today... in gratitude... I am aware.

I will not eat my vulnerability.
I will not get swallowed in my relationship (intimate and otherwise).
I will not disassociate.
I will understand the connection between my emotions, thoughts, food and the size of my ass...

I am grateful for the changes I have made.
I am grateful for the fantastic therapist I met at the right time.
I am grateful that I will never be *her* again.
I am grateful my ass is getting smaller.
I am even grateful for the sore muscles I have.
I am grateful for my strong legs that carry me through hours of expressive dance.

Embracing Forward Motion.