[clay]

Let me say that each and every one of YOU are such Brave Warriors! I have been in and out of this thread at times, since joining the Planet in May this year! I came then as someone who had been a caregiver.
Recently I was diagnosed with Endometrial Cancer...found on biopsy of uterus after an abnormal US showed some thickening of one side of uterine wall. My gynecologist feels this is in the earliest of stages and I am given a prognosis of 95% survival rate! I will take those odds!
I was referred to a Gynecological Oncologist in a town an hr. from me...at a cancer treatment center. This Friday is my first appointment...11/11/11..cool huh? I had my (yearly) mammo done last Friday to take results to her..and am having a colonoscopy done tomorrow with anesthesia. The Oncologist wanted those results also.
I am okay with facing all of this..and I am in a very positive frame of mind. I am going to fight this..all the way. My battle isn't as tough as most of you have faced...and I am in awe of each and every one of you. Some are facing this battle alone..some are with someone to face it with them..I am in that camp of no one to face this with me. For me, that is hard...but I have to trudge on...you know.
I have days of being afraid, of being so alone, and feeling so lonely...I try to stay busy, occupy my mind..but my heart..it is just not satisfied..it wants what it wants...you know? I know there are schools of thought..and I have thought them all..I just would wish for someone to hold my hand, tel me I am going to be okay, to care about me..and to be by my side...
Sorry I am crying and losing thoughts...I will come back later..
Thanks all you Brave Warriors..you make ME want to be just like YOU! I heart you all...Clay