[Greyson]

Matthew, I respect your choice and candor. Being a "guy" looks different for everyone.

To give much thought and reflection to your transitioning or not, is part of the process. Best wishes to you Matthew.

Originally Posted by Matthew

Hey everyone,

I figured I would come in and talk to you guys about some stuff thats been on my mind for about 2-3 months now. I've been making some very serious life decisions and I've gotten to the point where I really have to do whats right for me and one of the biggest decisions I've made is to stop my transition from female to male and go back to being the female that I was before. I realize that taking hormones and transitioning is a HUGE deal and I just want everyone here to know that I never took that lightly when making my decision to even begin the process. I had *no* doubt in my mind that I even wanted to transition when I began and I'm not sorry that I did - I've learned alot about myself and have gotten in touch with my body in ways I never knew existed.

This hasn't been an easy decision and I have talked with My family and friends about it ....... they all say that as long as I am happy they still support me and I am sure I will receive support here too. I have a doctor's appointment next month in which I plan on talking to him about permanently stopping male hormones and seeing what I need to do about going back to my old female safe. I know that just as its a big decision to come out as FTM, its also a big deal when someone decides that they want to go back to who they were before but I'm just glad that I did not have any major surgeries before I made this decision. About three months ago I noticed that I was starting to not feel like a guy anymore - I didnt think much about it until I realized that this was an everyday thing.

I did hours upon hours of soul searching, talked to family and friends about it and came to the decision that I was never truly a guy in the first place - perhaps it was just my way of trying to find my place in the world. I've never taken any of this lightly as I said before and I have such a true appreciation for everything that a trans person goes through because its certainly not easy. I am always going to be a big supporter of the trans community and want all of you guys to know that I think of you like brothers - I thank you all for letting me be such a close part of this community, I will still be around as a trans supporter and friend no matter what

Each and everyone of you rawk big time!!!!