Dearest Penguin:
So I have decided to give these letters to you for Valentine's Day. I promise to try and write you a love letter a day for an entire year. I know this is a pretty tall order, but I know I have enough words. We both know that. *Smirks*
Though, tonight, I am really sad. You are busy, and it sucks sometimes. Not that I would change a thing, because I want you to succeed so badly. There is a part of me that is selfish. I keep telling that part to shut up because deep down I want you to succeed and any tough stuff that comes with it will be worth it. Just like waiting all these days until I see you again. I really believe that you are here as my "twin flame" and you also are teaching me patience. Which I am learning, kicking and screaming the entire way. I am so thankful for the wonderful and beautiful woman you are. I just wish sometimes we weren't as disconnected.
I am really looking forward to your visit, Penguin. I really think that this time will be good for us to connect. I look forward to looking into your deep brown eyes and show you my heart and soul. I cannot wait to feel your love crash over me. Every time you look at me, babe, it feels like a title wave crashes into me. Covering me in your love, it knocks me over. Just thinking about it pulls at my heart. It tears me apart inside that I cannot be near you, but in time we will and it will be all worth it love. You mean everything to me. Absolutely everything. As extreme as it sounds, I would wait 1000 years for you. I just know. It is an unshakable earth shattering truth. I love you and I know, I will always love you. You are the other half of my heart. No one can turn my head from you babe. It would be nothing, no emotion. With you there is raw, real, truth of love. Passionate and pure. I tried to run from it Penguin, because I thought God made a mistake. I thought how could He possibly give me this. I have done nothing to deserve it. What I have realized is this. It is not up to me to determine this. God gets to do whatever He wants. He brought me and you together. I am so thankful.
You are the other half of my heart and soul. I love you, that phrase isn't enough to express the deepness of my love. It rips me apart inside every time I think of you because of how much I love you. It brings me to tears. I do love you. I am so afraid to loose you. It would absolutely destroy me.
Please believe that baby. Please.
Love,
Sheep
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