[sylvie]

Not something that comes easy, especially forgiving myself.
Looking back, i am not proud of many things .. Looking back and dwelling is certainly "not" on my list of things to do anymore - however, moving forward for me right now involves revisiting many parts of my past & finding forgiveness for myself & releasing it to the Universe..

i also have amends to make with people i pushed out of my life for unfair reasons.. i was a selfish being and stuck within my disease of being a compulsive overeater/food addict - and isolated myself from reality and i know i have hurt people in the process.. i feel a tremendous guilt for that and know that the roadblock i have hit is because i need to take it to the next level..

So, i'm overwhelmed with emotions, and i know i am in the right mindset about this because i am dealing with the hard honesty with myself and struggling for ways to do this.. to reach out, apologize, explain and even if i get a royal F.U in return, i know that i have done what i needed to release it because i need the peace of mind to move forward again..

This is the maybe the most difficult part of my journey.. And of everyone i know, i am the hardest on myself - earning my own forgiveness will be one difficult task, and when i receive it i'll know i earned it and earned it well..

i want my life back.. ♥ doing that one step at a time.