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02-13-2012, 09:16 AM

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Originally Posted by Brock

So glad to read you went to meeting.

Your mind is probably still feeling fragmented. Since you have already been aquainted with meetings from your past, I feel certain you have heard what I am about to say ... Will say it anyway ... Try and focus on similarities and quit worrying about lack of modernization. HEH HEH! Alcoholism doesn't change. It's primary goal is to make our lives miserable and is overjoyed when it can bring death.

I have to tell you I chuckled a bit when I read your comment about "modern." I know you were being serious but it just struck me funny. I sat beside a woman tonight at our Women's meeting and she kept me going too. The things we come up with to say or notice can be quite entertaining at times. Go to meetings until you enjoy them. And then keep going. I was relieved to read you are surrounded by meetings. You know what you need to do.

It's the main thing.
Your friend,
Brock

Hey Brock

I was being very serious. I wonder why in the 28yrs since I started going to meetings why nothing has changed. Even the posters on the wall were from that era. I find that odd.

I understand alcoholism doesn't change either, however my attitude, with the help of my God (my faith is important to me and came long before this period of sobriety), has changed. I don't understand and never did all those years ago why the focus is on how to drink and not on recovery. The share from the top table was about what a greedy drinker she was and the dark place it took her and that in the just 9 months she'd been sober life had got better. Yeah I'm sure it has but how? Tell me that bit. I don't need advice on how to be a better drinker I'm already an expert. I want to talk about recovery. The other folks that shared from the room that night also shared how bad their drinking had been - it's almost like a competition for who was/is the worst drinker - and only ever said "and since I stopped my life got better" .......no-one says how it's improved and how they maintain it on a daily basis. That was always my issue and it's still there after just one meeting. I'm gutted!

I live in a small-ish provincial seaside town so the pool of sober folks is relatively small. I wish I lived close enough to a big city where there would be more people, options and meetings to explore.

My mind is indeed somewhat fragmented but it's also sharper that it's been in years which is causing me not a little conflict.

Thanks for your encouragement, I will do more meetings, I have to at least try a few more in the area to see if they're any different. If they're not I don't know what I'm going to do.

In friendship
Incubus