I think one of the hardest things for a child to understand is that just because someone carried you for 9 months and brought you into this world doesn't mean they ever bonded with you or themselves.
My mom and I talk but it's like we are neighbors needing to borrow a cup of sugar. I use to think I was close to her, but then after 42 years of marriage she divorced my dad and she became this person I can't recognize anymore.
She's happy and I am happy for her. I never really felt any grave pain with her changing so much, but all the what if's came up.
I decided to settle my mind and heart on the matter and moved on.
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"Until one has loved an animal, a part of one's soul remains unawake."
~ Anatole France
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